my best friend ~t.h.~

Part 4

I quickly answered the phone...
"Hello? Harrison is everything okay?" I asked because he usually never calls, he just texts me.
"Yeah uhm tom said that you were a bit off when he came to drop Tessa off. Do you need some company?" He asked me.
My heart and my face lit up a bit.
"Yeah yeah sure totally that would be great actually" I said lowering my voice.
"Ok I'll be over in a few minutes" he said and hung up the phone.
I got a bit excited that someone was going to be here for me. A few minutes later I heard the doorbell. I walked past Liz trying not to make eye contact. I opened the door.
"Hey Haz!" I said hugging him as he came inside.
"The pizza will be here any minute" I said as I walked into the kitchen.
"So um Cass is everything okay?" He asked me.
I looked down at the table and shook my head.
"Everything is just falling apart right now. I feel like I have nobody." I said as I started to tear up.
He gave me a huge hug and I cried into his chest.
"I'm sorry Haz" I said looking up at him.
"For what?" He asked.
"I don't want to use you just for comfort, you're my best friend" I said pulling away from the hug.
"Don't be silly darling. I'm here for you no matter what" he said and I hugged him again.
It was nice to know that I at least had him. I know tom said before that he is here for me but he's not actually here for me. He's out on a date with someone else and doesn't have time for either of us.
The pizza came a few minutes later. I had the boys get their pieces and i left the rest out of Liz and Sam wanted some. I tried to avoid them as much as I could because I was so pissed at them.
"Cas do you want to go upstairs and we can talk?" He asked grabbing a slice. I nodded my head and we walked upstairs.
We sat down on my bed and put on the Tv as we ate our pizza.
"So what's going on Cassie?" He asked lowering the volume.
"Well um my mum is gone and no one knows where she went. She did this a few times but this has been the longest and I just don't understand why she keeps leaving on us" I said as my voice started to crack.
"Is she still, you know, in grief?" He asked.
"I think we all are Harrison. But we need her more than anything right now. After dad dying she's the only person that can help us and she's not even here" I said as I bursted out in tears. He put down his plate and leaned over to hug me. I was crying, again. I didn't want to burden Harrison with all of this but at the same time I still want him to be here since I need someone but I feel terrible.
"My sister just made me feel like a low life and my little brother is so clueless but I feel like I'm doing everything I can. I'm just not good enough Harrison." I cried.
He pulled away from the hug.
"Cassidy Hill. Do not ever say you aren't good enough. You are the strongest person I've ever seen. You fought through your dads death for almost a year, you are taking care of your family and you're still managing to be a straight A student in school. Cas I don't even know if I can handle that and you've already handled it. That's something really, really amazing in you. That's what makes you, you." He said wiping a tear from my face.
All of a sudden I got lost in his eyes. His bright blueish greenish eyes. I started to realize how perfect he was and how amazing it was to have someone like him.
"Cas" he said noticing I was staring at him.
Then he kissed me.