Lessa - This isn't easy but It's not supposed to be {completed}

Logans apertment

Tessa's p.o.v
I feel like something's missing but yet it's not. Jake, it doesn't feel like he really meant to cheat. It doesn't feel like I should stay mad. I'm not sure what happened I'm not sure of anything now. The doctor told us the okay to leave three minutes ago. I'm sitting in my bed as Logan and Jake wait. Right now all I want to do is be with Logan. It feels as if I've been here but not as if Logans been in the earth and I'm in outer space. We've been to far but yet he's my boyfriend? I think he's my boyfriend. I need to talk to Jake but I'll do that later. They wait for me to figure out what I'm doing and right now I have. I got up I almost fall down as the rush to me. I stand up completely and straighten up. I hug Logan he hugs back his warm strong arms against my back and my head in his chest. As I let go I see Jake hurt but yet again he cheated didn't he?
"I want to go home," I say they both take my arm. They surprised each other by that. I know I'm living with Logan and Jake knows that to. Because because I can't remember.
"She still has everything at my house because she agreed even if -," Logan says but stop and raises his eyebrows like they know something I don't.
"Yeah but she's been hanging out around the team ten house lately hasn't she," Jake said raising his eyebrows and talking deeper like he's hiding something that Logan understands but I don't. I say stop quietly but they hear. They both do.
"I want to go with Logan and sleep in the bed I've been sleeping in," I say and Jake looks down as Logan smiles. Personally I'm not sure the bed I have been sleeping in at Logans is the right one. I know most of my stuff is in the guess room so I don't invade his space but I've been sleeping with him haven't I? I know what the doctors said, I lost my memory or the last few months. Now I'm questioning everything I'm doing or what I've said or done. Logan puts his arm around my waist. I stay quiet and look at Jake but look away. I can't face a cheater or a friend, I'm not sure what he is anymore. Me and Logan walk it and head to his apartment. We get there and he opens the door. It's late out and I smile when I enter. Something's just right being here again. I yawn and walk slowly to the hallway and stop.
"Why'd you stop?" Logan asks.
"I know what the doctor said. He said that I lost the memory of the past few months. I'm not sure where to go. All I know is that I've been with you when I fall asleep, is that right?" I ask Logan he pauses but answers.
"If that's where you remember then yes, yes that's where you belong," Logan said and smiled. I walk into the room and put on niki shorts and his oversized sweatshirt. I lay in bed and seconds after he comes in. He smiles and lays down. Logans hesitant but then puts his strong arm around me. I feel safe, I feel like me, and I feel loved once again.