Lessa - This isn't easy but It's not supposed to be {completed}

It wasn't always an accident

Tessa's p.o.v
We get there with my heart still beating fast. We walk in and I grab some grapes and wash  them. I sit down at the table and Logan follows me.
"Do you really want to know?" I ask.
"Yes," He looks into my eyes.
"Everything?" I said.
"Everything what eves happing to you I want to know," Logan says and I trust him.
"I get anxiety and when this kind of stuff happens it gets worse. Sometimes a faint or my heart beats fast. Sometimes I can't control what I'm doing. I'll make mistakes because I get overwhelmed or stop thinking. Most times it doesn't feel to bad but once an awhile I wish it could stop," I said and he starred at me. I roll down my sleeve to show him.
"This is what happens when I don't think u cut myself because the pain was to hard. When this happened I was missing you to much. I was with Jake but i loved and still love you. This cut  is a reminder to stop myself and think," I say and look at him and don't look away. I have to see what he thinks.
"Omg Tess you cant die? Right?" Logan asks looking way to concerned. I mean the only way I could die from my twitches get bad if I stop thinking. It can happen I can die if I stop thinking. I think about saying that but Logan can't handle that. I can handle that.
"No I can't die," I sigh of relief comes from Logan.
"Good because I would not survive without you," Logan said then hugged me. We go and sit on the couch. We watch some Netflix and eat some of the grapes I washed. My heart slows down to normal. With Logan I will think and I'll think forever. I just hope I don't cheat.