Lessa - This isn't easy but It's not supposed to be {completed}

Hey Jake...

Tessa's p.o.v
Maybe I should have told Logan that I can die. But if u did he'd be with me 24/7 and I can't have that. I need some me time just like he needs his. Today he has a lot of meetings and everything so I gotta find what to do. I could call Ericka. I get dressed and eat brush my teeth and hair. Do my makeup lightly. So much stuff I have to do. I go into Logans bedroom after I'm all done. I open the door quietly so I don't wake him.
"Aaaaaaah!" Logan tells and I fall to the floor.
"Omg haha Logan I came in here not to wake you!" I say while laughing.
"Well to bad I'm already awake come here," Logan said and I went up to sit with him. He turns and sits up to face me.
"So where you going?" Logan asks me.
"Well you have business stuff so I'll probably be with Erika," I said then there's that face again I should have just lied.
"Are you going to be alright?"
"Yes now I have to go call her," I say.
"Not yet come back," Logan says and we lay down together. He holds me like we're together. I like it but not yet can't a girl be single?
"I really like you Tessa," Logan said.
"I have to go Logan," I say and try to get up but he pulls me back down. Moments later he smashes his lips onto mine. I don't stop him and he keeps going. We make out for at least thirty seconds. Then his hands go lower to my as* just not on it yet. We continue to kiss but I pull back.
"Logan I can't, okay" I say.
"Why what's holding you back I know you want this Tess. I can see it," Logan asks almost annoyed.
"Nothing exactly is holding me back but I don't want to be in a relationship right now. At least not a serious one," I said.
"We don't have to be official. What about we can make out and be flirty while you can go have fun and see other guys, deal?" Logan said. I do think about it. I mean what could happen?
"As long as we can't say I love you to each other  and we can't get to serious. As in we can't be passionate in our make outs I guess that's what I mean. If we get three strikes the deals done," I say and Logan looks like he's thinking.
"Fine, deal."
"Okay deal."
"I do get a kiss before you go then right," Logan asks me getting closer.
"Well I guess if that's what we have to do," I lean in the few inches that Logans not in and then we connect lips. His are so soft and small like Carmel for some reason. I pull away because he's getting to deep.
"Logan the deals off if you get three. But let's just call this a practice k?" I m by the door now and phone in my hand ready to call Erika.
"Sorry I forgot it's kind of hard when your gorgeous and considering our pass," Logan said and I leave laughing a little. I call Erika and she says I can come over.
I'm vlogging in front of the team ten house when someone jumps in my car. I can't see who but they grabbed my camera and told me to start the car. My stupidity started the car and we end up in the ally by the cafe. I turn my head and see Jake!
"Omg Jake you scarred the crap out of me!" I say I bit to loud.
"Sorry but I needed to see you before you go with Erika. Have you made your decision?" He asks.
"Yes and I'm not going to be with Logan I'm going to try and do other relationships," I said. Then he leaned in and kissed me! What's with these people and kissing me out of the blue.
"Jake I really have to go before Erika gets worried. Can I drop you off here?" I ask him.
"Yeah sure by Tess hopefully I'm one of those relationships your trying out since you don't remember our last one," Jake said and then got out. I drive back to the team ten house. I knock and Chance answers.
"Hey Chance where's Erika?" I said.
"In her room and hi" Chance said and then made his way upstairs. I knock on her door and she opens it fully dressed for a party.
"Where are we going?" I ask her.
"We're getting sushi then going to a party Aidens throwing. It's in the same buildings as Logans apartment," Erika said. (Btw if you don't remember Aiden is Erika's boyfriend from vacation)
"Oh okay well I got to get dressed then," I said and she pulled me into her room.
"So I got this this and this which one?" Erika said and my mouth dropped.
"Did you buy all of these in the hour before u got here?" I ask.
"Yes now go try this one on," Erika said and then pushed me into her bathroom. I tried all three on and the second one was perfect.
"The second one," I tell and then she starts doing my makeup.
"So what's going on with you and Jake or Logan?" Erika asked.
"With Logan we have this deal don't tell anyone but we have a deal that we can make out with each other and do other things as long as we don't say I love you or get to deep into the kiss," I said.
"Oh so you can go mingle and be single while fu****g Logan?" Erika asks getting the idea.
"Yes, now who's all going to this party?"
"Jake, me, you, Kade, Chance, Alissa, and more of the team ten members but I don't feel like saying everyone. And then there's the rest of the people who come so ya," Erika said and she finished my makeup. We head out the door to sushi! I love sushi we get there and eat then head to the party. We set up with Aiden and around ten everyone gets here. I dance with Erika then with some really cute guy.
"Hey my names Tessa yours?" I tell over the music.
"Grayson,"
"Wait Grayson Dolan? Hey," I say. 
"Oh hey Tess wow you look amazing," Grayson said while eyeballing my outfit.
"Thanks I'm going to go get a drink but how about you give me your number and I'll give you mine?" I ask then we exchange numbers and I go find something to drink. But I dragged into a room. It's Jake!
"Oh hey Jake what ya doing?" I ask and clearly he's drunk. I mean I drank like two shots but that's it he looks like he drank fifteen.
"Tess you look so sexy in that tight black dress can't I just take it off for you?" Jake asks bitting his lip.
"Ah Jake not here come on," I say and take his hand. I think he thinks that I'm taking him to my place to have sex but no I'm taking him to Logans and Is place for him to get rest. I open the door and luckily Logans not home yet. I text Erika that I went home and she replied with a thumbs up. She's clearly doing something something with Aiden. I bring Jake to my room which is the guest room. I take his shirt off and his pants then pushed him to the bathroom. I wait on the bed and when he comes out he's just in a towel. Not to lie he is hot.
"Here's your boxers and I put water and a pain killer on the night stand," I say he nods.
"Thanks Tess." Jake goes back into the bathroom and moments later he comes out. He lays on the bed holding me. I mean this is my bed but I can sleep with him. I walk out of the bedroom when I here the front door open and close. I close my door and walk up to a tired Logan. He pulls me into a kiss.
"Logan you look really tired come on," I say and pull him to our bedroom. Did I just say our. Oops I mean his.
"Come on Tess there's nothing against the roles that say we can't sleep in the same bed," Logan said. I can't go with Logan because then Jake would think I left him. But I can't sleep with Jake because then Logan will think that I left him.
"I have to go now get some rest Logan you had a long day," I said and then kissed him and the lips. Then he pulled me and the bed. We keep on kissing while he's on tops of me. His hands trail down and the kiss gets deeper. No.
"Stop Logan. I have to go to bed. By the way strike one," I said and left. I can her Logan mumble to him self saying sh*t. I go and grab a blanket and fall asleep on the couch watching Netflix. Long day met one person almost had se* with two and I'm falling asleep on a couch. But first I'm texting Grayson.
T- hey it was nice dancing with you
G- same where's you go?
T- I had to take care of someone
G- your to nice
T- I know goodnight
G- goodnight