So I suggest listening to the songs listed in the chapter because they are all gold. I didn't want to make the whole 'listening to songs' part too long which is why there isn't much to each description. Hope y'all still like it, lemme know what you think :)))
Darling, darling, doesn't have a problem
Lying to herself 'cause her liquor's top shelf
It's alarming honestly how charming she can be
Fooling everyone, telling how she's having fun
She says you don't want to be like me
Don't wanna see all the things I've seen
I'm dying, I'm dying
She says you don't want to get this way
Famous, and dumb, and no age
My, I'm dying
The boys, the girls, they all like Carmen
She gives them butterflies, bats her cartoon eyes
She laughs like God, her mind's like a diamond
Buy her tonight, she's still shining
Like lightning, light, like lightning
Carmen, Carmen, staying up 'til morning
Only seventeen, but she walks the streets so mean
It's alarming truly how disarming you can be
Eating soft ice cream, Coney Island queen
She says you don't want to be like me
Looking for fun, get me high for free
I'm dying, I'm dying
She says you don't want to get this way
Street walking at night, and a star by day
It's tiring, tiring
The boys, the girls, they all like Carmen
She gives them butterflies, bats her cartoon eyes
She laughs like God, her mind's like a diamond
Buy her tonight, she's still shining
Like lightning, light, like lightning
Baby's all dressed up, with nowhere to go
That's the little story of the girl you know
Relying on the kindness of strangers
Time and cherry marks while doing party favors
Put your red dress on, put your lipstick on
Sing your song, song, now, the camera's on
And you're alive again
Mon amour, je sais que tu m'aimes aussi
The boys, the girls, they all like Carmen
She gives them butterflies, bats her cartoon eyes
She laughs like god, her mind's like a diamond
Buy her tonight, she's still shining
Like lightning, light, like lightning
Like lightning, light, like lightning
Darling, darling, doesn't have a problem
Lying to herself 'cause her liquor's top shelf
Camila hears the third song from the mixtape as she reads Lauren's short note about it.
"Just 'cause Carmen sounds like Camren and it's Lana Del Rey ;)"
Camila laughs at her girlfriend, loving the fact that she's still able to make her laugh without even being here. Once Ally left, Lauren decided to too not long after. Leaving Camila to listen to the five other songs on the mixtape. And that she does, she listens to 'End of the Day' by One Direction, 'Our Song' by Ron Pope, '2 Poor Kids' by Ruth B., and lastly 'No Words' by The Script. She can't help but smile as she reads each note before the specific song plays.
"At the end of the day I'll always want you."
"There will be never enough words to describe you. Your beauty, your mind, your love, just everything about you. No dictionary could ever comprehend."
"I don't need much, just your love and your heart."
"I can't promise no fairytale, but you'll be the queen in any castle I build."
By the end Camila realizes that she can fall more in love with her girlfriend than she already was. Once Camila was out of her love struck daze she goes to take her shower for the night.
The water hits her bare back as the late of the night evolves around her, it's only around eleven, but that is later than Camila usually stays up when alone. Once she is out of the shower and done with her routine for the night she grabs her guitar. She plucks a few strings before starting a melody. As she is in the process of creating a masterpiece, Ally walks in.
"I haven't heard you play in a while," Ally notes as she walks in the room. Automatically Camila starts tapping on her guitar, bothered that she was interrupted.
"I played for Lauren not too long ago, can you please leave? I'd like to continue the song," Camila ask, not realizing that she might've come off as rude.
"Can I tell you about my night first," Ally ask, knowing her cousin wants to be alone.
"Yes, you met Troy's brother tonight correct," Camila ask, forgetting about Ally's important night for a moment.
"Yeah, he was nice. He looks a lot like Troy too," Ally says as she continues to rant about her night. Camila taps on her guitar some more, tuning out whatever Ally is saying to her.
"And I lost you, have a good night, Mila," Ally says with a wave before leaving the room. It takes Camila a minute for her to realize that Ally is gone.
Camila then continues to work on the chords for the song for the rest of the night.
So I just finished reading You Make Me Sick and realized that either I'm doing things wrong or just hella different. I did get a laugh at the fact that they both have their autistic best friends in both stories, especially since this is the first time I read the fanfic. So I'm gonna work on the stimming situations and special interest things (I've only been around very low functioning autism people so I didn't really know about the special interest thing.) Also I have a question: would you guys rather me make longer chapters, but update less or keep doing what I'm doing now? Let me know :))) This was just a filler chapter so that I could talk about the stuff in this a/n.
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Fiksi PenggemarCamila was just a teenage girl with autism, that's all she was ever defined as. Until she met Lauren, the psychiatrist's daughter and star softball player of her highschool.
