AN- okay I've been pretty absent lately, and I'm really sorry about that. But I have a job, I babysat this weekend on top of my actual job, and I have a test in school, which just so happens to be a public exam course. I have no sweet clue how it works everywhere else in the world, but in Canada all third level courses (grade 12 classes) have public exams and the exam is graded by the government and then compared to the rest of Canada. That public mark then determines what universities see as your grade in that class, because the public is worth 50% of the overall grade in that class. I'm taking two public exam courses this year because I'm stupid and it's harder than I expected. I have a World History 3201 public and a biology 3201 public and biology is kicking my ass. Next year I'll have English and Math publics, which shouldn't be too bad (I hope). But yeah. Sorry I haven't been posting much, I'm just stressed the fuck out and I have no time for anything but I love writing so I'm making time for it, even though it isn't as often as I'd like. Thanks so much for reading, it means a lot :) drop a comment if you're having school problems cuz I'm low key nosy as to how public exams (or the equivalent to public exams) work in other places.
~Daisy
2010
Addison's POV:
"What are we going to do?" I ask Meredith later on that night, as we snuggled up in bed together.
Sam had packed everything of his from my house and moved back into his own, it was hard to watch and I felt awful, but it had to happen. Derek had done the same; packed all his things and went to stay at a hotel until his flight left in the morning. He was going back to Seattle without Meredith.
"What do you mean, baby?" She asks, running the tips of her fingers up and down my arms lightly.
"Our living arrangements" I clarify "you can't stay with Derek, I don't know if I want to stay in LA or ask you to move in with me. And after all this time, you're crazy if you think I'd settle for a long distance relationship" the idea of being apart from Meredith again made my stomach tie up in knots.
"I don't want to live apart from you, and I don't know if LA is really for me" Meredith sighs "but I'd do anything to keep you with me, including move here with you. I could easily switch my residency to St. Ambrose"
I think for a moment. I don't want Meredith to have to leave her home, her friends, her job. She has a life in Seattle, and I could too. Why drag Meredith somewhere unfamiliar, when I could just go back to something familiar? Back to Seattle with my friends, doing surgeries that make my heart pound in my ears.
Why would I stay in LA when my heart was Meredith, and Meredith was happiest in Seattle, where it all began.
"I think" I say finally "that tomorrow night, I should go back to Seattle with you" I decide "it makes the most sense; you own your house there, I could easily get my job back at the hospital, and you shouldn't have to leave your friends and family. Besides, Seattle Grace is a better teaching hospital than St. Ambrose and you deserve the best education"
I feel a light kiss pressed to my collarbone. "Right when I think I can't love you anymore, you go and make me love you impossibly more"
I smile, and pull her as close as possible, relieved and relaxed that we were finally together and it could be just us against the world. Encased in her scent, I placed my nose to the top of her head and inhaled lightly.
"The top of your head always smells like you" I murmur, a smile on my face as I drift off to sleep.
If happiness were a moment, it would be that one.
~
The next morning was chaotic; first, I had to run down to the practice and sign over all my rights, quit my job, and reassign my patients (the crucial ones would be monitored from Seattle, every other one Naomi was happy to take care of for me). I was out of the house by 7, and I didn't get home until nearly lunchtime. It took hours to figure everything out.
And of course, Sam had to stop by and talk to me.
"So this is it, you're really leaving" he asks, looking shocked. I was packing up boxes from my office, Meredith was still at my house packing up all my clothes and personal things (she wanted to come to the practice with me, but it didn't feel right to be together with her where Sam could see; I didn't want to hurt him more than I already had).
"I'm really leaving" I confirm, pressing the top down on my last box. Everything was packed and ready to go, in a few hours it'd be like I was never there.
"I'm sorry" he tells me abruptly "for making you feel like you had to hide how you really felt for two years. You should've felt like you could've told me about her sooner"
I shake my head, and go to leave the room. "You did nothing wrong"
~
Home again hours later, I was already exhausted.
"Honey I'm home" I yell out jokingly, as I shut the front door behind me and abandon my purse and keys on the table. Walking upstairs, I see that Meredith has nearly my entire bedroom packed up already.
"Wow, you work fast. Eager to get me back to Seattle, huh?" I joke, embracing her sweaty body. She'd been packing all morning, and it showed.
"I'm eager to get you home" she corrects "home with me. Where I'll clean out half my closet for you, make room on a shelf in the medicine cabinet, and undoubtedly piss you off more than once"
"We're really doing this" I smile, pulling away from her to meet her eyes "we're really doing this right"
She nods, and leans up to kiss me. "We are" she confirms "we're doing this right, I'm taking you home, and I'm never letting you go again. For as long as I live, I'll love you, and I don't want to be without you again"
"I don't want to be without you either" I smile "it's surreal; we're finally together, officially. No secrets, no hiding, no cheating. We are us, and it's absolutely amazing"
"It is" she agrees, a smile stretching across her face as well "what we have is something beautiful"
"Not nearly as beautiful as you" I kiss her again "now, let's finish all this packing up; I want to go home to the love of my life"
She pulls away hesitantly, and heads back to the box she'd been taping shut. "You should call Richard, just to make sure he'll hire you back again. I'll finish up in here, and then I'll pack the bathroom. What are you planning on doing with everything else?" She asks me.
I shrug "I bought the house; we could always keep the furniture here and use it as a vacation house. We could visit Naomi and Charlotte, see the beach, take our kids here for summer vacation eventually"
"That's a wonderful idea" Meredith agrees "I'm sure when we have kids, they'll love it almost as much as I love you"
"Stop being sappy and get back to packing; I'm not paying you for compliments" I joke light heartedly.
She laughs loudly. "You're such a killjoy; and you're not even paying me. Unless" she wiggles her eyebrows suggestively "you're paying me with sex"
"Okay" I giggle "that's prostitution, and you'd get sex anyway. You know that"
"Right; I'm irresistible"
"Shut up and pack the boxes"
~
Early the next morning, we were back in Seattle. Back home, back together, and more in love than ever. We were exhausted, but somehow when the cab pulled up to Meredith's house, we managed to lug our bags inside before heading upstairs.
Deciding that clothes just wasn't worth it, I stripped out of everything I had on before climbing into bed, sighing as the cool sheets hit my clammy skin that smelled of airplanes and travel. If I had the energy, I would've showered, but I spent all day packing and that took everything out of me.
"We'll have to shower tomorrow morning; Richard wants us both in for work" Meredith mumbles tiredly, sliding into bed next to me, void of any clothes. "I'm glad he gave you your job back"
"Even if he didn't, I'd still have come back with you. This is home" I agree with her, and snuggle down into the crook of her neck contently.
"Seattle is home" Meredith confirms "we met here; we fell in love here. I realized I want to spend the rest of my life with you here"
"You're my home" I can feel myself falling asleep "no matter what, no matter where we are, you're my home. And Seattle is where I found my home"
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