Being Adi's GirlFriend

Im scared to death...

Adi's been in the bathroom for over an hour now. I'm really worried. My hearts beating fast. I stand up from the sofa me,Michael tal and Anthony were sitting on and went to the bathroom door.
I turned the handle but it was still looked.
"Adi?" I asked worriedly.
No reply.
I tried pushing the door to get it to open, but it didn't work.
"Adi! Please open the door!" Still no reply.
Tal stop up and stood next to me.
"Adi," he said to the door.
"Adi!" He said a little louder.
Still no reply.
I bit the skin around my nails.
My heart started to thump faster and faster like  1000 beats per minute.
I put my hand to my mouth as my eyes flooded with tears. I put my back against the wall and slid down.
Tal looked at me.
Then tried to force the door open.
"Adi open it now or I'll break the door down!"
Michael and Anthony then came. They just stood there. Then Anthony decided to sit down next to me.
"Michael help me break the door down."
I was scared.
I really wanted to make sure Adi's ok but at the same time, I'm scared to see what's behind the door.
They were able to kick down the door.

This is it...
I get to see what Adi has been doing.

I stand up and walk into the bathroom.
"ADI!!!" I scream.
I run into the bathroom and kneel down beside him.
He was pale as hell! He looked like a ghost!
His hands, face, legs were freezing.
His arms and legs were covered in blood and scars.
Tal, Michael and Anthony came running in and kneeled down beside me.
Tal checked his pulse.
It was very very slow.
I screamed and cried.
Michael called for an ambulance and they came really quickly.
They took Adi to the hospital.
The nurse said that Adi can't have any visitors at the moment as he needs to have blood injected into him and there won't be anytime for people to visit him.
I sat there in the bathroom, looking at Adi's blood while tal went downstairs to the kitchen to get something to clean it up with. Michael and Anthony were sitting next to me trying to comfort me. It wasn't working.

Look what you've done y/n! U made the love of ur life upset and he tried to kill himself because u were going away! U don't belong in this world. Adi doesn't deserve u as a girlfriend! Adi needs better! He needs a girlfriend who won't let his friends get in the way of things.

There was a spiteful voice in my head. As much as it hurt me, it was right.

But I don't know what to do. I want to be with Adi but at the same time I want to kill myself.
I feel my head getting lighter. I feel my hands shaking.
"Y/n u don't look ok, do u want to lie down?" I hear Anthony say.
I don't answer him.
I feel my eyes starting to water.
"Yeah. Come on y/n let's get u to bed." Michael says.
They both stand up and pull my hands and I try to stand up.
When I get my legs to stand, I start to shake even more.
Tal comes in and sees me shaking. He puts the cleaning products a the windowsill.
"Y/n what's wrong?!" He says worriedly.
Tal grabs my hand firmly and they all pull me to my bedroom.
Before I got to my bedroom, my legs gave up on me.
I fell to the ground. The last thing I saw was tal attempting to grab me before I fell.
I fell to quickly for him to catch...