Being Adi's GirlFriend

"He will kill himself..."

I woke up in the hospital again. I've been to this hospital about a million times this month!
Tal, Anthony and Michael were there.
I sat up in my bed and that's when they realised I was awake.
"How you feeling?" Tal asked.
I just looked at him.
Then I looked down. I put my face in my hands.
"Are u ok?" He asked.
"Tal, I want Adi."
"He's down the corridor. He's not allowed any visitors."
"Well, I'm going home."
I say. I get out of the hospital bed.
"U can't just leave." Anthony said.
"I don't want to stay here. Tell Adi I'll be waiting for him."
Before I leave the door. Tal grabs my hand.
"U can't leave unless the nurses tell u to."
"I don't feel like staying here tal! I'm too depressed! I can't stay here."
I feel like crying right now. I've cried a lot lately. And I've missed the fact that Adi makes everything better. But sometimes he's the reason why I'm crying.
Tal sees there's tears in my eyes and pulls me in for hug.
I hug him back. He was warm and cosy. I liked his hugs. But I miss Adi's hugs.
After about a minute, Michael and Anthony find us.
"The nurse says we can see Adi now." Michael says.
I let go of Tal and we walk to Adi's room in the hospital.
We walked in and there was silence.
"How are u bro?" Tal asked sitting beside him.
"Alright.." he replied quietly.
Adi didn't take his eyes off me.
I looked into his eyes.

I wanted him home. I wanted everything to be ok again!!
But... I don't know when that's going to happen..

I could sense that Adi was sorry. I could see the sorriness in his eyes.
There were cuts all down his arms. They looked like letters, but I couldn't make out what it said.

"Bro what the hell did u do?" Tal asked.
"I..... I don't know,"
"Was u trying to kill ur self?!" Tal questioned.
"No. I- I was just doing something."
"Doing what?!"
Adi the twisted his arm slightly so we could see his cuts. It said:
'Y/n'
"Adi," I said quietly.
"Why..?"
" y/n I don't want u to go. I need u!"
"Adi, I still think I should go to England. I will come back in about 3 months, then we can carry on. I just think I need a break."
Tal stood up and looked at me in the eyes.
"Y/n if I go, he will kill himself. You've seen what he's done when he knows ur going. Just think what would happen when ur not there everyday with Adi. He will fall apart! I know so many crazy things have happened in ur relationship with Adi, but u love each other, I think u need to stay.."

I glance over at Adi. I don't think he denied what tal said.

If I go, Adi's going to kill himself.
So are you going to stay,
Or go?.....