Being Adi's GirlFriend

Last day (part 3)

After a couple more rides and some Cotten candy, we decide to go back.

When we did, tal, Anthony and Michael make a video for ReactionTime and game time. So me and adi watch friends.
We watch the one when phoebe had triplets.
"Do u want children?" Adi asks me.

I've never thought about this before.
That's a lie.
I used to think about this when I was younger.
I did want children.
"Yeah," I say, not taking my eyes off the tv.
"Do u?"
"Eventually." He says.

It's 1:00 now. Still a lot of the day left.
We're all just chilling and watching tv.

Little did I know I wasn't watching tv anymore. I was zoned out, thinking about everything.

The beach, the hospital, the scary man, the truth or dare game. Everything that happened in our relationship.

I'm such an idiot!
Why are u going to England?! U want to stay! Deep down u know u want too!

I can't cancel it now can I? It's too late. I mean, I'd love to go back to England.. I want Adi with me though.
I can't look weak.
Wait, what's wrong with showing my emotions? Come on y/n most of the time u have cried! U can't stop showing ur emotions now! Tell them u want to stay!
Even if I do, I can't do anything about it. I'm just gonna make everyone think I'm an idiot for going to the other side of the world for no reason. Ok ok it's not exactly the other side of the world. But it's over sea!!

I take a deep breath. I've messed up everything just like I always do.