Finding You(on hold)

Back to the Past

~ To give a bit of back story I will be doing a little flashback of Melody's freshman year. It will give a bit of background to the whole Riley and Collin/ Melody and Collin throw down

Melody

I can't help but turn against everyone I love. Every single time I get happy, some one ruins it. I don't know if I should blame myself or not. All I did was give them my trust and love. Was that not enough?

Apparently not my subconscious answered. I knew Riley had acted weird lately but I couldn't, wouldn't have thought it was this. How long have they actually been together? Was it as long as we'd been messing around? Should I even be hurt? I mean of they're actually a couple then she should be the one whose hurt not me. I guess I am a whore like everyone says. I'm fucking someone else's boyfriend behind their back. Not to mention its one oft friends' boyfriend.

How could I be so stupid? How could he be so stupid. "I was so close," I thought to myself. He'd made me a toy, and not even one to be proud of. I was that you grew up with but can't let go of when your older so you play with alone. When no one was looking I was the only thing to looked to. But when they're there. I was no one. And that's who I am to Collin. No one. He doesn't care. There's no way he could. He was cheating on Riley with one of her younger friends. Does she even know, I ask myself? Probably not. I should talk to her. But first I need to get out of this fucking car and wash the blood off me.

I took the notion to try to reach for the car. A quick force of pain hit my shoulder. It must be out-of-place. I tried with other arm. I was too weak to push it open. Trying my best not to hurt my shoulder, I reached down for my purse. With pain, I was able to fetch it from the floor. I could see the blood from my leg there. How bad is this wreck? I pushed the items in my purse around hoping to retrieve my phone. My first instinct wa to contact Collin. I went with the pain in my shoulder and calf to dial 911.

"911, what's your emergency?" I heard from the other end.

" I flipped my car, and hurt my shoulder and calf."

"What's your name sweetie?" The woman spoke to me.

" Melody Parker," I winced.

" Is anyone else with you?"

"No ,it's just me."

"Alright, can you tell me where you are."

"No I was just driving around," I winced, " then got lost. But I remember taking a right past Redd's Art Barn."

"I'm sending someone your way, it they're anyone you want me to call while you wait?"

" No, I'll be fine." I told her trying not to wince again.

"Would you like me to stay on the phone with you?"

"No, I'll be fine," I told again.

"Alright Ms. Parker someone will be there soon. If anything else happens and no one can find you stay in your car" Not like I have a choice. "Call us again."

This is 911 not a sales call. Of course I'll call again if anything happens. "Alright I will." I said then hung up.

I needed to call someone. Collin, no I don't need him. Riley? No of she knew why I wrecked she'd be wrecking too. Nichole. She'll answer. I quickly failed her number and told her to get to the hospital. Just as we were hanging up I began to hear sirens in the distance. Thank god, I thought. Because I really need a doctor. Maybe two, one for my physical health, and one for my mental health. I hope whatever they give me for pain will numb this with it. I knew I shouldn't have been so stupid as to trust him like that. To fall for him like that. He was my everything and he knew that. All along he'd been playing me like he cared, like he loved me. My mom was right this entire time. No one can love me. I'm nothing to love. Just a stupid mistake.