Godparents (Camren)

17.

Trigger warning: abuse and a few other awful things. I'll put a small description of what happens in the A/N so you don't have to read the details and won't miss out on what happens.

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I cautiously open the door to Alex's flat, trying unbelievably hard not to make any noise in the dark silence of the space. Unfortunately, due to both my clumsiness and inability to see, my foot smashes into what I can only assume is the coffee table.

I see the light in the bedroom turn on and hear some movement, "Mila?" Alex calls out to me before opening the door, her gaze landing on my frightened figure.

She steps out of the room, clad only in a white t shirt and her underwear and approaches me slowly. My pulse increases, unsure of what to expect from her. Is she angry? She didn't sound furious on the phone, but that doesn't always mean that she isn't going to hurt me.

Once she's within a few feet of me, she reaches her arm out and I flinch back instinctively. I hear her arm drop back down to her side and she sighs, turning on the lamp to my right and sitting down on the couch.

With our faces illuminated by the light, I can see her eyes are puffy from crying. I sit down beside her.

After several minutes of silence, she speaks without looking at me, "Why don't you love me?"

I turn to face her, "What are you talking about? Of course I love you?" It comes out as more of a question than an affirmation.

She meets my gaze, "No you don't." Her eyes begin to water again, "You didn't come to get me, you weren't there."

My eyes shift to the floor, "I..."

"You what? Obviously I don't mean anything to you." Alex stands up.

I open my mouth to speak but nothing comes out.

"You're fucking pathetic," Alex's eyes become hard as she wipes at the tears in her eyes. She adds something under her breath, "After all I've done for you.."

I stand up too, "You've never done anything but hurt me."

"You don't know pain," she turns away from me.

I frown and reach my hand out to touch her shoulder, "I'm sor-"

She quickly reels around and grabs my wrist harshly. "You're what?" She leans toward me and I try to take a step back but she holds me in her grasp.

I keep my mouth shut and close my eyes. I know where this is going.

"Alex please.." I try to keep an even tone, hoping not to anger her further.

She grips my wrist tighter and pulls me into her forcefully, her other hand roughly pulling my hair to tilt my head upward, "Please what?" She sneers, kissing my neck in sloppy movements.

I will myself not to cry and I wish that she'd hit me instead. "Please don't do this."

She stops kissing me and drags me behind her as she walks toward the bedroom. "Take off your shirt," she says, pushing me toward the bed and walking into the closet.

I take a deep breath and go over my options. I could run, but that would only make things worse when she eventually caught up to me. I can just do what she wants, it's not like I can't handle it again. Maybe I could call Ally and she would come get me, but she'd be so mad if she knew this was happening again. Maybe I can..

"Why is your shirt still on," Alex speaks angrily, holding a shiny pair of hard metal handcuffs in her right hand.

I quickly take it off and throw it on the floor before she can make me regret questioning her desires, "I'm sorry.."

"Damn right you are," she walks over to me and grabs my wrist just as tightly as before, pinning it above my head and attaching it to the bedpost with the handcuff. The metal is cold on my skin.

She quickly gets on top of me and puts her lips on mine, kissing me roughly. I try to keep up with her pace, hoping to please her. She shoves her tongue deep into my throat, swirling it around and I choke, pushing her back with my free hand, coughing loudly.

She smashes my head back into the headboard with her strong arms, "What the fuck do you think you're doing? Don't ever put your hands on me like that again. Do you understand me?"

I try to nod between coughs, but I can't because she's pinning my head down with too much force.

"You're worthless. Your only purpose here is to satisfy me," she lets my head go and moves her hands down to my jeans, roughly unbuttoning them and shoving them down my legs, and then ripping them off completely.

I hold back my tears and try one more time, "Please stop.."

She flings my jeans across the room and is back on top of me in an instant, "Did you not just hear what I fucking said? It's like you're retarded holy shit. Are you stupid, Camila?" She grabs my face roughly and leans in so that our mouths are almost touching. "Fucking answer me, bitch," she leans back and slaps me loudly across my right cheek.

I close my eyes and try to focus on breathing, but her weight on my torso is suffocating.

"Look at me while I'm talking to you," she hits me again and again, her fist now closed.

My cheeks sting as I begin to lose consciousness.

"Oh no, you don't get to blackout so easily," she snarls into my ear and shoves her hand down the front of my underwear, roughly touching me. "So wet," she murmurs.

Suddenly, police sirens are heard outside the building and Alex frantically gets up. "What the fuck did you do?" she shrieks. "Did you call them?"

I attempt to respond but am too dazed to form any concrete words.

Before I can register what's happening, Alex is back on top of me again. She alternates between punching me and shoving my head back into the headboard. By the fifth round, I nearly fade into black, but a knock on the door stops Alex mid strike and catches our attention.

"Police, open up," a gruff voice speaks from outside the door.

Alex grips my face in both of her hand and spits down onto my cheek. "You're so fucking dead," is the last thing I hear before she slams my head into the headboard a final time and I quickly drift off into unconsciousness.

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A/N
So what happens in this chapter is that Camila goes home to Alex and is afraid that she's mad but she ends up being sad about Camila going to be with Lauren instead of getting her out of jail. They get into a small argument and Alex begins to abuse Camila and then sexually assault her before the cops show up to her door.

Lauren will be in the next chapter, don't worry.

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