you've been the source of my indescribable pain two times and you don't even know it.
i was in the car today and i thought about how much i cared about you and how much i couldn't believe someone actually cared about me... last time someone said they loved me was a lie.
i felt good.
i don't blame you. i'm a fucking mess. i don't deserve you or your care, or anyone really. but i can't deny that it hurts. last time i hurt this bad i didn't even have the person. but now i had you.
and i lost you.it's my fault i'm so scared of what people think. i was too wrapped up in what people could say, and you're gone. and it's my fault.
i wish i could do something, but i can't. i wish i could talk to you. i love you.
fuck up,
treeland
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thoughts and feelings
Poetrya collection of melancholy poems and letters that I hope can maybe bring comfort to someone who is hurting