The Boy I Just Met||JoeSugg FanFiction

[21] Waking up to.. Him

I smiled back and then cuddled into his chest while he wrapped his arms round my small of a back and we both lied down on my bed watching the rest of the movie.

-Alisons POV-

I woke up and felt arms around me, I was confused at first but then remembered what happened last night and smiled.

Joe.

He made me smile.

I looked up and sure enough Joe was right beside me still sleeping. I could hear him breathing out slowly and I felt his chest slowly rise up and down.

I wanted to stay like this forever.

However whenever something good happens in your life, something bad follows.

Joes arm around me reminded me of Brad.

How Brad used to hold me.

How he used to kiss me.

And worst of all... how he lied when he said he loved me.

Heck he probably was just using me all the time.

I didn't want to be in Joes embrace anymore, even though I felt safe with him beside me, All I thought about was Brad and how he hurt me. Emotionally. And once physically. But that's another story.

I got up not even caring if I wake up Joe, I just had to get up. I got up from bed and heard Joe starting to sit up, I just left my room and walked into Lillys.

I closed the door behind me and sat on her bed.

Honestly I don't even know what I'm doing but oh well.

I can't start another relationship right now. It's so much easier with me and Joe staying friends, a relationship with him is something that I do want I'll admit but I can't.

It's just too early for me to move on.. it's only been a few months and I really did love Brad, I can't just move on that easily.

Hopefully Joe will understand.

I walked out of Lillys room and into the kitchen where Joe was.

"Everything okay?" Joe asked with concern.

"Yup," I answered with a fake smile.

I could tell Joe was confused but he brushed it off.

"I made cereal," he exclaimed.

He gave me a bowl of frosties with a smile on his face.

He then took his bowl of coco pops and went to sit down on the couch.

I went to join him and just then realised he was only wearing sweats so his abs were visible.

He looked up at me and smiled, then I returned a genuine smile which made him smile brighter which made me smile more and then he...well you get the point.

We talked a little during breakfast but mostly just ate and smiled at each other.

God his smile kills me.

I'll name his smile a 'killer smile'.

I smiled to myself about that name which then he gave me that killer smile.

"Oh I forgot to tell you, I'm heading back to London today so I'd have to head to Zoe and Alfies to pack my stuff up in a bit." He said.

"Oh, okay," I replied sad at the fact that he had to leave to go to London.

"I'll be back here for the weekend next week though, and ehhh....would you like to stay with Zoe and Alfie during the weekend?" He asked me.

"Oh and obviously me," he added in.

"Would Zoe and Alfie mind?" I wondered out loud.

"No their fine with it, trust me," he answered me.

"So you've already asked?" I asked curiously.

"..Maybe," he replied with a cheeky smile.

"Sure, okay" I said.

"Yay," he replied and then kissed me on the cheek.

I blushed and looked down.

Joe must've noticed cause he lifted my chin up and said,
"Did I do something wrong?" With a worried tone.

"Only that you missed," I replied.

Oh god how cheesy does that sound.

Well done Ally what have you done.

Next thing I know, Joes lips are pressed against mine.

He kissed me only for a couple seconds and left me wanting more.

I smiled goofily and so did he.

The rest of the morning we chatted and flirted a bit.

Joe then had to leave and gave me a quick peck on the lips before he left.

What does this mean?

Are we together?

No. We can't be. He hasn't even asked me to be his girlfriend.

Girlfriend?

Do I want to be his girlfriend?

Of course.

But am I ready?

Of course not.

I'm really confused.

Why did I agree to stay with him and Zoe and Alfie.

Zoe won't be happy when she finds out there's something going on between me and her brother.

She already doesn't like me that much (which I still don't know why). I don't need to give her more reason to hate me.

To her I'm probably just some huge slut or something that sleeps with random guys that I find in the club.

No. That was one time.

And no I wasn't a virgin before that.

I lost my virginity to Brad.

Sadly.

Hence one of the reasons why it's so hard to forget about him. I thought he really loved me.

"IM HOME," Lilly shouted from the front door.

She came running to me and dropped like a million shopping bags on the floor.

"Now. Spill." She ordered.

She's my bestfriend of course I told her everything although I might've left a few Brads out.

I don't want her to know I'm still thinking about him.

But I did tell her the part where as I don't know if I'm committed to start a new relationship.

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