Reborn Angelic Soul

"What Do I Do?"

Getting over a broken heart is never easy to do especially in a long distance relationship yea she hurt me she hurt me bad but am I an idiot for wanting to stay with her? Am I a dumbass for wanting to give her a second chance cuz I love her? Today we went on a break do to share fact that there's no one more trust in our relationship.

Do I still love her? Yes. Do I trust her I want to believe me I want to know. Everyone has their own opinion on what I should do some people say leave while I can don't take her back if it can happen once it can always happen again other sale just hold on in she and I will make it through this together.

Honestly all I want is just to take her out to a movie hold her laugh and cry together and have a long conversation into the night stars, just she and I no one else around it influence our decision however I know that's just a fantasy in the real world she and I both must take this chance to figure out what we want. The stigma that comes with cheating is that everyone says never forget them cuz if they can do it once they can do it again especially when your relationship is long distance but here's my thing I know her I know her heart so my call me and naive for wanting to stay others will call me stupid however at the end of the day isn't it my decision?

I know some will probably read this and say yea you're just blinded by love that you can easily find in someone else. Here's the thing though if you truly knew me in the way my heart works this isn't just a you can easily move on I don't invest my time heart and soul into relationships without expecting to be some kind of long prosperous relationship is this just a rough patch cuz you know its life nothing can ever be easy.

Knowing my luck this is just one of those rough patches personally I'd like to get past this with her let everyone say that im stupid for staying but at the end of the day it will come down to two decisions either everyone could support me and allow me to willingly put myself in the situation again or leave straight up they could just leave me be and allow me to live with my decisions. Only two options at this point im willing to give now my close friends cuz they know me know that these options could never apply to them for multiple reasons but I know them I know they'll voice their concerns but at the end of the day I know they'll have my back regardless they might enjoy the fact of saying I told you so if anything were to happen again but I'd like to think that this is just the rough patch that every relationship goes through and comes out 20 times stronger cuz of it.

So what do I do? Take it day by day that's all I can do, day by day.