The contest

Chapter 25:
*edited*

"Is this a joke?" I ask.

"I'm afraid not but I'm confused right now. should I know you?"

I run out of the room and down the hall and around the corner.

He forgot? How is that possible? We loved each other! Always!

Someone taps shoulder and hope that's it's Luke telling me it's just a sick joke or that he remembers but it's just Calum.

He sits down next to me and I put my head on his shoulder and cry more. He puts his head in his hands and then looks up at me. He is crying too.

"I'm so sorry it will get better I'm sure he'll remember sometime" he says calmly.

"What if he doesn't Cal?! What if the crash was the last time he would love me?!"

"It's ok calm down everything will be fine I promise"

I stand up and look down at him. "easy for you to say when the one person you loved doesn't know who the hell you are anymore! My life is so fucked up and you say everything will be fine! Well screw you because this won't turn out fine! He doesn't and probably will never know who I am! I loved him! If I were you I wouldn't make promises you can't keep!" I scream and run down the hall back to the hospital room I was staying at before.

I lock the door and slide to the ground. I sob for a long time until I fell asleep.

When I opens eyes I hope all of this this will go away. But I know this is the harsh reality.

Just one question clear in my head.

Why me?

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I wake up and look in the mirror. I look a lot older. I think harsh reality has forced me to become this way.

I have bloodshot eyes and bags under my eyes. My face all pink from crying. I look awful in other words.

I walk out the room to Luke's room. I walk into the room to see the boys talking.

I walk in and Luke looks at me and the pain hits hard. I bite my lip to keep the tears from coming.

"Hey" Ashton says sadly.

I look at Calum who just looks away like he's mad. I guess he is for what I said to him.

I look to Michael who looks truely upset. I think it's because he always referred to me as his best friend and you don't want to see your best friend in this kind of pain.

I sit down and no one speaks. Luke looks at me intensely as if trying to remember me. When he sigh and looks away I know he doesn't remember.

"I think we should talk" Cal says looking at me hurt.

I nod and he leads me to an empty room next door. He instantly pulled me into a tight hug.

I sigh and hug him back and some tears spill out. Thank god he isn't mad.

"I'm sorry" I say.

"Me too" he mumbles through my hair.

He pulls back and looks at me. "I was mad but I mean with what you are going through I understand but you need to know not only you are hurt. Me and the boys are too. Seeing him not smile when he sees you hurts us too because we know it hurts you. Your like our sister and to know your broken hurts us too. Plus our bandmates is in intensive care. We feel awful all of us."

"I'm sorry I blew up in your face but it's nice to know you guys will be here with me"

He smiles. "we always will be"

"Always" I whisper and break into sobs.

"Hey what's wrong?" he asks rubbing my back.

"B-before the c-crash he told m-me he l-loved me a-alway" I cried.

"I'm so sorry" he says and grabs me and hugs me. "Let it all out" he says soothing me.

I full out sob into him and he rubs my back. We stay like this for awhile. I can't seem to stop crying for 2 minutes any more.

He sighs and talks. " I think I should get back to the others but I think you should go to the hotel room." he says and looks me in the eyes.

I didn't notice but when I was crying he was as well. I guess he was serious before.

I nod and leave the hospital to my hotel room. I get into my room and then take a shower.

I play my music so I'll sing instead of thinking. It actually works.

I get out and look in the kitchen for food. I see a knife and look away. I promised Luke I would ever again.

But Luke doesn't care about me anymore.

I look away and grab food and go into my room. I put on my music and slowly fall asleep.

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"Luke please!" I beg.

I'm standing on a cliff that break meaning I would fall to my death. But next to me is another cliff that looks like it could fall with someone else on it. One of his friends from home.

"Luke!?" I scream.

"I don't know you I need to save my friend!" he screams at me he goes and saves his friend as I cry hard.

"Luke!" I scream and the cliff breaks and I scream his name over and over again till I hit the ground.

I groan and sit up. It was just a dream. I just fell off the bed. That was the worst dream I have ever had.

I get up and put on my dark skinny jeans and nirvana shirt just like Luke's. I sigh and grab my converse and put them on I put my hair in a ponytail and walk out the door to the venue.

We have a show tonight. Yay! (note the sarcasm)

I get there and the boys are already doing sound check. Luke has to sit in a chair because of his injuries but he can still perform at least.

I sit backstage until the show starts. I go on stage and I put on a fake smile.

I sing songs and then I introduce 5sos and get off. I sit and watch the boys perform.

I'm fine up until Luke starts talking.

"Hey guys as you know I have been in a crash but I'm just fine. Not a bad thing at all"

I cry a little. He isn't even hurt by any of this!

"Thanks for your support" he says and they start playing disconnected. the song he sang to me.

I run out of the venue and to the hotel. I pack my bags and order a plane ticket back home.

I can't take this any more.