Ups & Downs

Thirteen

**Trigger warning**
[David's POV]
I was so mad at myself. I really did lose the best thing that ever happened to me..
"Hey" A random girl smiles. Ive seen her before but I don't remember where..
"Hi?" She sits down next to me and grabs my hand.
"What are you doing?" I ask but she doesn't answer, I look down at my phone and see I have tons of Twitter notifications.
[Liza Koshy]
'Guys Im single now don't worry :|'
"Are you single?" She asks and gets me out of my thoughts.
"Um..yeah" she smiles harder and I look ahead.. I see Liza running off. Where have I seen this girl?
"Whats your name?" I ask.
"Alena" She twirls her hair. Why is that familiar?
"Look it was nice meeting you..ugh I have to go" I stand up to leave and she calls out bye. I knock on my apartment door to see if Alex was home.
"Dude you really fucked up" he opens the door.
"How?"
"See for yourself" He sighs and points to my room. I open the door and look at a note that..Liza left me.
- hope you like your room. This is for being with Alena.
Liza. Your girlfriend? Wait.. ex-girlfriend.
"Who the fuck is Alena?" I mumble to myself and start to clean up.
"David she was pissed" I look behind me and see Alex leaning on the door frame.
"What did she say?"
"Uh..She said that you were smiling and laughing with another girl"
"I'll see you later, I need to go talk to her"
"Good luck. She left here almost crying, you really fucked up"
"See you later" I sigh and leave the apartment.
[Lizas POV]
I hold it in my hand and twirl it in between my fingers. It takes the pain away...
"Liza you good?" Scott knocks on my door.
"Im-Im okay" I yell back.
"sure?"
"Yeah Im going to sleep!"
"Okay..." I hear him walk off and I lock my bedroom door. Memories come back, Noah told me not to do it again.. but.. I have too.
I lean on the back of my door and wipe away the tears on my face. I look at the scars on my wrists, instead I cut into the tops of my thighs.. I wince at the pain as I cut deeper. I then carve Alena and David names into my arms. I feel dizziness hit me, deju vu.
I feel really sleepy.. I rip off parts of my shirt and tie it around my cuts to stop the bleeding. I slip into bed an cry myself to sleep, here I go again...
[Kristens POV]
"Liza?" I knock on her door gently. Scott said she was going to sleep but it's been a few hours. Her door was locked.
"Scott.. her doors locked" I become worried. 
"LIZA" I knock louder.
"Y-yeah?" I hear faintly.
"Are you okay? Dinners ready"
" Im okay.. Im not hungry"
"Okay.." I give Scott a bowl. There's two knocks at the door.
"Who is it?" I yell out.
"David"
"What do you want?" I get up and open the door.
"Is Liza here?"
"I think she doesn't want to talk to you at the moment" I try and shut the door but he stops me.
"Kristen I need to talk to her!"
"I ask her. Wait her" I look at Scott and knock on her door.
"Liza..David is here.. he wants to talk to you"
"Tell him I don't want to see him right n-now"
"Why?"
"Because he can't see me like this"
"Liza whats wrong?" I hear the door unlock.
"I-I.." she begins to cry again and I hug her gently.
"Wait here. I'll tell him" I shut her door behind me.
"David shes sleeping"
"But I thought I just h-"
"Come back tomorrow or something.. text her?" I shut the door and sigh.
"Whats wrong?" Scott asks.
"Its Liza. She isnt okay" he nods and I go back into her room.
"Kristen.. I just need to be alone" She doesn't look at me. I nod and sit on the couch with Scott.
[Lizas POV]
I don't want to eat, because Im gaining weight, I don't want to talk, because Im a mess, I want to be alone, because Im hurt.
_
I wake up and see the light shining through my curtains. I look at my phone and see that David texted me.
D: Can we please talk?
D: Im sorry okay?
D: Liza I didn't know who she was.. I think!
D: Please talk to me!
I didn't respond, I untied the pieces of shirt from around my wrists and go for a shower.

I change into all black and brush my hair, I tie it up in a messy bun and grab my razor again. I make a small cut into my wrist and I feel another tear run down my face. I clean myself up and put on my shoes, I realise that its 9:30 am and go for a walk without my phone.

I see David sitting on a bench with his head in his hands..I walk closer and hear him crying. I sit on the other side of the bench.
"You wanted to talk?" I mumble and he looks up.
"Liza.. Im so so sorry"
"You knew who she was David"
"No I didnt.. shes familiar though"
"David Alena was the girl who almost made me kill myself a few years ago.." I begin to cry.
"Liza I-"
"Save it. We talked are you happy?" I begin to walk off but he grabs my wrists and I hold back the pain. He looks at my wrists and lets go.
"Liza wait!"
"Goodbye David!"

I walk back into my room and lock the door, I start to cry again.
One of the best things that happened hurt me, my only best friend and boyfriend gone..

Gone. Like I should have been four years ago.
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AN|| Again a trigger warning for the next few chapters 
This was exactly 1000 words.

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