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Chapter 14: Unexpectedly in love

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Chapter 14: Unexpectedly in love

"Tomorrow I'm going back to the mountain resort where I've met Kevin one year ago. Tomorrow I'll put an end to this. With the last word in my notebook, all will be finished. I want to be able to start afresh now that college time is near."

Those were my thought from last night as I packed everything for a short trip to the place where that... that thing... happened. Do I dare to call 'that thing' the act of falling in love? Hmm... I most certainly can.

Some people say they just fall out of love like they fall in love. I don't think that's possible. Your lover will always be somewhere at the back of your mind wetter you acknowledge that or not. Just like you cannot un-love your parents. Sensing that you fall out of love for someone means that you didn't loved that person in the first place. It was merely an infatuation. I didn't fall out, I'm still in.

Now I am curled up with my feet under my but on the train's stool, browsing a few university brochures. A loud choo-choo and a jolt forward informed me the train came to a halt. I looked over the window and realized this is my stop. Quickly grabbing my heavy bag and trusting it over my shoulder, I ran past a few people standing in the hallway and jumped on the platform.

Something wet and cold dripped on my forehead and I looked up.

"Oh, no no no.. not today!" I spoke loudly in dejection. Why of all days does it have to rain today? My plan was to go and write while sitting in those places where Kevin and I once stood.

Sighing in acceptance of my ruined plans, my eyes spotted a taxi and in quick steps I made my way towards it.

"To the Valley of the Castle, please." I informed the driver and pushed my bag on the back seat before plopping down on the passenger seat myself.

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Here's what pushed me towards sending that text, breaking my own rule of silence: I could not imagine going to the mountain resort and ignoring the close proximity to the one boy who managed to shake my universe.

Acting according to the promise I made to myself in the night of the car accident, I pushed the buttons of the phone without regret. I did not want to see myself leaving the mountain resort asking "what would have happened if...?"

These thoughts seemed simple and correct at the time. I don't want to blame destiny, but I highly doubt it was just a coincidence the fact that right after our emotional goodbye, we were now physically closer than ever. And this without even wishing for the closure. OK, sometimes I did wished, but most of the times I was down to earth and didn't expect miracles.

So... three days after I sent that text, I got no answer from Kevin and I was just arriving at the mountain resort.

"Pheobe, welcome dear" My aunt beamed at me and spread her arms to hug me.

"Thank you for inviting me over, aunt Belle." Her name was Isabella but everyone revered her as Belle.

"Anyway, we are currently renovating the apartment so I'm afraid we can't spend much time together for the next three days or so."

"It's okay, I'll visit the mountain resort. You know I like that."

"Sure, just be careful. You don't know this area. If you get in trouble call me right away."

"I will." I pecked her on the cheek and began unpacking for the third time this summer.

When I was done, I went to the living room and started fumbling with the TV remote. Unfortunately, I could not find anything interesting to watch and even if I would have, concentrating was a struggle. Should I try contacting Kevin again or just drop it?