best friend • shawn mendes & magcon

Epilogue

Ava's POV

          It's been a year and a half since Shawn passed away. It was so hard. So hard to find out how to readjust my life once again to live without him. Only this time, it was for forever. Cam and Brad have been with me through this tough time. So have my friends from back home. It started to get better around 4 months ago. But I was always so depressed wondering why this happened to me. Why it happened at all. I missed the smell of his hoodies. I missed our late night talks. I missed our movie nights. And I missed our meal sharing. It was just such a rough patch. But finally I thought to myself, Everything happens for a reason. Whether it be good or bad. Shawn's looking over me right now just how he always had. I know I'll see him again. It'll just have to be a while. I loved Shawn. I really did. And my feelings will never fade away. But I think that it's time I move on. I don't want to be stuck in this stage for the rest of my life nor do I think Shawn would want me to be. I have allowed myself to look at other guys now. But I still think of Shawn. I think I'm beginning to like Cam, but who knows how that will end up. The boys have all gone their separate ways but still have a group chat in which they keep in touch. Life's routine is starting to go back to normal. I'm just missing my other half.