Wajah Tum Ho

13. The Imperfectly Perfect Us

Jab tum mujhe bahar se sakht dekho,
Tab samajh lena ki mai andar se tooti hui hoon.

Translation: Whenever you find me tough from the outside, just know that I'm broken on the inside.

Don't let go of the man who shows you that you are always worth it.

Accept it, you are not perfect. There is always someone who is prettier, sexier and smarter than you. In this world, there is always someone who's better than you. You have your own strengths and flaws. All you need is someone to tell you that you are more than enough for him and that nobody can be compared to you.

There will be days that you'll cry, you'll break down, you'll get mad, you'll feel as if you're a failure or disappointment and you'll feel as if you're not enough for anyone... That's a real challenge for any man that you'll meet. It is not easy to calm the storms in the head of someone who is feeling like crap.

As they say, "people come and go". Yes, it's true. Most people will leave you once you start showing your vulnerable side. It's very rare that people will stay in your life, trying to make you feel better and trying to untangle you from all the mess that you're in... so when a person stays with you after all the shit that you've put him through, please don't ever let him go. Meeting that type of person is a destiny and a blessing.

Once you meet that person, he'll be there to remind you that you should never give up on life. He'll be there to remind you that life goes on and you should keep on trying. He'll make you realize that life is beautiful and so are you. He'll be there to comfort you and squeeze you into a tight hug when you have those crazy meltdowns. He'll be there to show you a thousand reasons to smile when you can't even find one. He'll be there to kiss away your sadness and fears. He'll be there to love you even if you're a mess.

He'll accept you for who you are and what you're not. He'll see you as the most wonderful girl he's ever met and he'll make you feel like it every single day. He'll show you that you deserve every love in the world. He'll show you that you are always worth it no matter what happens. For once in your life, you'll feel as if you're more than enough for someone. You'll be happy because of him.

He is the one who will show you that life may be hard but it's always worth it so please keep him at all costs. Fight for him. Love him in all the ways that you know. Tell him that's he's wonderful. Take care of him. Don't ever let him go because a man like him is hard to find.

What was I doing with my life all this time? Had I been so blinded by the pain of losing Mumma that I neglected the only person who cared about me all the time? I am imperfect. In all the ways one can imagine. I'm no beautiful, classy, elegant, sexy type of girl, that Advik actually deserves but, he never lets me feel that I don't deserve him. He always made me feel like I am the one for him, like I'm the only girl in the world, like I'm everything he asked for and the best part, he always made me feel like I'm worth it through his actions and everyone knows actions speak louder than words ever can, and maybe that's why this is like a reality check for me.

There were days when I actually felt like crap, a garbage, a trash, Miss Nobody, an unwanted waste in this world. There were days when the reality started haunting me. There were days when my nightmares began eating my soul. There were days when memories became my new nightmare. There were days when I went berserk, a person you would want to throw in the darkness of some mental hospital, away from your life. There were days when even breathing started choking me to the death of past. There were days when the darkness of depression started consuming me. And then there was Advik. The person who fought all the devils within me and brought me back to life. He made me aware of my existence, the reason to exist and gave a new meaning to my life.