Wajah Tum Ho

17. Threads Of Past

Aapke baad yeh mehsoos hua humko,
Jeena asaan nahi, aur marna bhi dushwaar nahi.

Translation: After you left me I've realized that life is difficult without you and death is not acceptable without you too.

There are certain things that hurt, there are certain people that hurt, there are certain memories that hurt, there are certain words that hurt, but most of all, there are certain people whom you love way too much, that their ignorance starts hurting you in all the wrong places. You have different ways of dealing with it all but you absolutely start losing your mind when it comes to that one person. And guess what, once again, the history is releasing itself.

It's because of Nia, that I still have traces of Nandini that I was before. It's because of her that I still have a part of me that I never want to lose. She made feel alive when I had lost every single reason to live. But today.... Today it felt like destiny has once again thrown me back to the phase when mamma had left me alone and bhai had lost himself in the guilt of something he had never done, leaving me somewhere I felt suffocated and had nothing and none to bring me back to life.

"Nandini..."

I looked up and found Advik sitting in front of me. I tried to smile at him but the fact is, I couldn't. He sighed and looked down at his knotted fingers.

Advik: Why did you stop me?

Nandini: Because it was not the right time, Advik.

Advik: When is the bloody right time, then?

He spoke with gritted teeth, his mind getting the best of his frustration, running his hands through his hair messing them even further if possible.

Nandini: Messy hair looks sexy on you.

I bit my lower lip to fight back the smile that threatened to break out looking at his expressions.

Advik: Oh no! You don't do that with me.

He pointed a finger at me, shaking his head in denial and defence.

Advik: You always do that.

Nandini: Do what?

He narrowed his eyes at me because he very well understood that I got what he meant.

Advik: Diverting my attention by seducing me. I know. I know.

And that made me chuckle.

Nandini: And then too you get seduced huh?

Advik: What? Don't blame me. Blame your comments. Blame your charm. It's not everyday that you seduce me.

I shook my head giggling when all of a sudden he leant closer to my face, his minty breath falling on my face. His lips were touching my earlobe and the proximity was way too much for me to handle so I closed my eyes involuntarily.

Advik: So who's getting seduced here huh?

My eyes snapped opened as soon as I heard his deep husky voice falling as a husky whisper on my eardrum, but found him way too close to me and I swear I could hear my heart thumping loudly against my chest. His swift, delicate and gentle fingers swept away the lock of hair that escaped from my hair bun as his hand continued to rest on my cheek.

Advik: She has no right to talk to you like that, Nandini.

I sighed at his stubbornness and held his bicep and leant closer to the warmth of his hand.

Nandini: She's just had a bad day Advik and nothing else. And if you said anything today, it'd have turned worse.

I saw how she was trying to grab Manik's attention but just like any other time, Manik took out his frustration on her. How many souls are you going to scar Manik?