Within Eternal Flames

I Made A Deal

"After all these years you have finally found me."

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He has the name of which, I do not speak

And because of that he stands before me

Making me shake as if the rocks had been broken along my fault.

When he had spoke, it sent shivers down my entire being,

When he took a deep breath in, I suddenly had no air to take in.

Every little thing this man had done literally killed me.

His words were so poisonous

And now I can see that his touch is quite deadly.

I should cover my mind and bleed out my cries but no, I stayed and took a glance back into those eyes.

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Tears had filled your gorgeous, emerald eyes

You desperately try to embrace me but I mustn't touch you.

If I do, your sins will become mine and I wish to die holy 

So I dare not hide

For this man will dash right through me in attempt to grab hold of me

Then in a split of second I'll become nothing

-

All of the sins that brought him here today

Still remain on tip of my tongue as some sort of reminder

Gods reminder.

As if my reminder, however, is left stained on my brain.

The man's poison once coursed through my veins

I almost couldn't live with these everlasting pains,

The pains he had brought,

The pains he had caused,

I should banish this man and send him away to where he rightfully belongs!

But alas, you pray not see hell

And for that I will truly weep, because I can see the reason you've longed to find me.

I am the missing piece to your partial puzzle,

The one who had always shown you your colors ,of which, you wished you hadn't seen

You had died a beast

And death had only brushed me

For there was so much heartache that I cared not to see what lies next for me

But something had told me it was not yet my time

My angel of blue light cast me the sight to see what I had been begging for;

Children to love and a husband to adore

Yes, this was something I could not ignore

You see, my belly was barren so I couldn't believe

Simply letting this demon go, would give me a gift I had prayed for daily.

But of course, the angel had said there's a price I had to pay

However, it was too only come to me once the time was right

"Once the man was ready.."
He whispered, out of sight

I was to,

" ..be faced with a decision I cannot make.."

My angel then said,

"Don't worry chérie, you'll know the answer. It is one that you left locked in your heart shaped box. Just open and you'll see that you too, can finally be free."

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Today is the day I had to decide if this man is worth forgiving

Of course, It was years ago

But some events with him has haunted my every night.

I feared your uninvited return so  desperately much that sadness had never left my sight.

Even when I had heard you passed away just 2 years after our part..

     I

      couldn't

let

         go

I grew visions of you rising from the dead and dragging me down to hell with you!

I then, would forget to eat, forget to sleep, forget to bathe

The lack of sleep was leaving me more dread over every tiny movement I could ever do.

I was rotting away but, then I was saved!

The child as promised, born in good health

And ever since then I have been truly happy 

-

The angel of blue light gave me this prize so perhaps I should choose to let go?

Time has been my charmer and my mind is now covered in armor. 

It is only right to end this fight.

But the price to let go will leave me leave me in scares

For Hades does not like to lose his best charms.

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My precious children forgive me so,

I cannot bare to bring sufferings towards another 

He may have been rotten but centuries have taught him

That surely he has learned his valuable lesson

It is nobody's fault but my own,

For now is the time for you to let go

My deal has been sealed,

And my living self will be put to rest
Though, my immortal being will be put through many tests.

God can't protect me, my fair child, so I give my protection to you.

       Fear no evil 

You are more than holy.

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My charming husband, you must understand

I shall grant you the gift of clairvoyance 

I'll sing to you every night as I did every night

And I shan't watch you cry over my grave

Nor will I look down on you when you take in maybe two or twenty drinks

Remember our little girl for they need not to think of demons such as, this man, to devour her poor soul

My love for you will remain and I will wait for you to find me.

I'll give you one hint,

Ask God for Hades.