Within Eternal Flames

Forbidden Love

I look over at you and see the satisfaction that grows upon your face

I use to hate to speak of any words

But right now

I feel as if everything I say is right

And as long as I say something, anything at all,

You smile and you write it down.

When you write

I feel

As if you are drawing on me

Letting the feather end of an old fashioned goose pen

Softly

And

Smoothly

Run down towards my stomach

Feeling as if hundreds of butterflies have settled over my entire body

And are slowly opening and closing their wings;

Welcoming me

..

But under that there's another feeling

The feeling of suddenly being

        wide-eyed
            and
        watchful

In the middle of the night,

By a hand over my mouth,

And terror wiping away my entire existence,

Then sitting up and seeing ..

             no one is there.

Leaving me with only the desires and longing for

        your
            arms

Followed by those beautiful words

I wish I could hear

over..

and

over again..

"Don't worry. I'm here."

Next comes the kiss that is suppose to make me feel safe once again.

However,
Underneath that is another feeling still

The feeling of being

torn
open

Not like flesh,

It is not painful as such,

But like a peach

And not necessarily "torn open" but too ripe and splitting of it's own accord.

Then,of course,

Inside there's a stone

A stone you wish to carve through

Though, I'm not quite sure if you will be happy with what you will see at my very core

Let's just hope that what I have in me will only leave you begging

For
more ..

Part 1
Inspired by Alias Grace