It was a week after Ryan caught Jax cheating, they of course were no longer together. Brendon sat in his room lonely. It was a different kind of lonely though. Brendon couldn't just call Spencer or someone and hang out to no longer be lonely, no. He needed Ryan, but not as a friend as more. He wanted to hold him, kiss him, tell him he loves him. He feared Ryan would never return to him, that he would never get another chance and that's what was killing him inside. He loved Ryan with everything he had, but he couldn't have him. Sometimes Brendon wished for death over life without love. Tears streamed down his cheek. "I love you." He whispered. "I love you!" He repeated yelling this time to no one.
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Brendon never told Ryan but he was kinda famous. He made music and people loved it. Ryan was going to a show in the park only because Spencer begged him to go. (Yes they made up)
What he didn't know was that Brendon was preforming. Ryan stood in the park looking at the stage as it was light up. His eyes widened when Brendon, Dallon, Kenny, and dan walked onto stage. "Hello everybody if you don't know I'm Brendon Urie and we are Panic! At the disco." Brendon said into the microphone. "If you're a lover, you should know
The lonely moments just get lonelier
The longer you're in love
Than if you were alone
Memories turn into daydreams
Become a tabooI don't want to be afraid
The deeper that I go
It takes my breath away
Soft hearts electric souls
Heart to heart and eyes to eyes
Is this taboo?Baby we built this house
On memories
Take my picture now
Shake it till you see it
And when your fantasies
Become your legacy
Promise me a place
In your house of memoriesI think of you from time to time
More than I thought I would
You were just too kind
And I was too young to know
That's all that really matters
I was a foolBaby we built this house
On memories
Take my picture now
Shake it till you see it
And when your fantasies
Become your legacy
Promise me a place
In your house of memoriesThose thoughts of
Past lovers
They'll always haunt me
I wish I
Could believe
You'd never wrong me
Then will you
Remember
Me in the same way
As I remember youBaby we built this house
On memories
Take my picture now
Shake it till you see it
And when your fantasies
Become your legacy
Promise me a placeBaby we built this house
On memories
Take my picture now
Shake it till you see it
And when your fantasies
Become your legacy
Promise me a place
In your house of memories
In your house of memories
Promise me a place." He sang. Brendon's voice was even better than it had been when they were younger. "That's not the only song he's made." Spencer said. Ryan couldn't help, but feel like he knew what the song was about. The whole thing sounded like their sad story.
Brendon left the stage letting the other go on to play.
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Heart beat (sequel)
Hayran Kurgu-sequel to I belong with you- Brendon decides to track Ryan down and get him back, but that's going to be hard.