yours. a love story

letting go

{ Ross }

i sighed, letting my head process what just happened. did i just fight with laura? did i really call story annoying? i run my hands through my head, trying to understand why i just said all of that. i groaned and looked at the ceiling. then back at my family, everyone was in shock, but courtney, walked closer to me and pecked my lips,

"you did good baby." she said softly, in my ear. i sighed and shook my head. why did i do that? i just. i don't know why all of the sudden im feeling this way. i feel mad and so sad. i just don't want to be around laura or story. and it's not because im 'annoyed' by them but because i still love- no. i just don't want to be around them.

"ross, what was all that about?" riker yelled, getting closer to my face. i sighed harder, not wanting to deal with this right now. i looked at riker and he seemed so mad, like he was about to rip my head off. i shrugged my shoulders, not caring anymore. i heard riker sighed shakily, mad.

then he turned away and walked upstairs, along with rocky and ratliff. great, now they're mad at me. i roll my eyes and looked at justin and rydel. justin was so into laura, it's so fucking annoying. justin's our family friend, he's a retired sergeant. but he doesn't scare me at all.

"i should go, thanks for having me del." he said to rydel, then started walking towards the door. once he was out, i bit my lip. i fucked up so bad and rydel was about to remind me of my little scene but she didn't. she just looked at me, disappointment in her eyes and then walked upstairs. rydel is my best friend and now, she's mad at me. all i have is courtney and she's all i need right now.

{ Laura}

i try my hardest not to cry on the way home, considering that my babygirl is crying uncontrollably in the backseat. i can't believe that just happened. and just to think that im in love with that boy but i don't want to be. not anymore. i need to forget him. and make my daughter forget him as well. i parked outside of my house and got out fast. and getting story out.

"baby, don't cry. everything's okay! we'll watch tv and ill sing to you." i said, wiping her tears again, earning a smile from her, making me happy. i unlock my apartment and walk in, instantly walking towards the bathroom to shower story.

it's midnight now, and story's sleeping peacefully in my bed. i can't sleep. i still have ross' hurtful words in my mind. how could he? i thought he loved us. ugh laura stop thinking of him. he ain't worth it. i know he isn't. i stand up as i hear my phone vibrate. i unlock it and it was a message from justin, i smiled a bit.

from "Justin <3 "

hi, it's justin: just wanted to make sure you and lil story are okay. let me know if u need anything.

i smiled at story's little nickname. justin is such a sweetheart. he was the only one who texted me and that made me blush softly. i sigh still feeling like complete shit. i start typing back.

to "Justin <3 "

hiii, thanks for texting, we're okay. i just feel sad ): hopefully i feel better tomorrow,

i walk to my balcony and sit in my little couch, looking at the city. why can't life be a little easy on me? i've been though so much. i've been a good mother, and have tried to give story everything she needs. im a nice person, im caring and i think before i speak. why is my life so messed up? i sighed as the sensation of burning in my eyes becomes stronger, my vision becomes blurry because of the tears i decide to wipe away before i start crying like a little baby. i need to be strong in this. my phone vibrated un my lap, a new text.

from "Justin <3 "

aw ): wanna talk about it?

i do, i do wanna let it out with someone. i groan when i find myself, whipping my eyes again. i hate crying so much. it makes me feel weak.

to "Justin <3 "

yea, i kinda want to. but i don't wanna worry u

i hit send. i keep thinking of ross. of how he would text as fast as he could, or how he would call me baby after every damn text. or when he felt that i was sad, he'd facetime call me and wouldn't hang up until i gave him a genuine smile. i miss that. i miss the old ross. the ross that loved me.

from "Justin <3 "

want me to come over? i can bring ice cream. story and me talked for a while. i know strawberry is her favorite.

i smiled a bit at how fast story got along with justin. he was so caring. but im so scared that he'll be like ross. ross, he was so d- laura stop thinking of him, god damn is it really that hard?

to "Justin <3 "

im glad you talked with story. she's sleeping. i want u to come, but i don't want to bother u ):

i stood up from the couch and walked inside again. im super cold outside. i walked into my room, finding story still sleeping with her mouth open. i giggle in a whisper and grabbed my blanket, walking back to the balcony and sit back on the couch. finding a new message

from "Justin <3 "

oh gosh laura, u aren't bothering me. send me your address, im coming with ice cream :)

i smiled as i typed my address and send it to Justin. i just wanted to cry to someone, you know? to let it out without story seeing me cry. i know she can hear me crying in the bathroom. i don't want her thinking that her mommy is this weak lady who can't get over a heartbreak. i want her to see me as this strong woman who will protect her at all costs.

minutes passed and i heard a soft knock on my door. i stood up, tiredly and opened the door, smiling a bit wider while looking at justin. he looked even more handsome. he was wearing a white tight long sleeve shirt, with some joggers and slippers. he looked like he was in bed. i opened the door.

"hey, thanks for coming." i smiled softly, while wrapping my short arms around his chest. he hugged back and i pulled away. he walked in, with a bag of walgreens in his hands.

"i bought ice cream." he said softly, making me giggle while taking the strawberry ice cream and putting it in my freezer. i sigh as i look back at justin, who has his hands on his pockets looking at me. i walked to the balcony and sat in the couch again, justin sitting next to me.

"let it out now laura. im here." i heard justin's soft voice said as i felt warm tears starting to run down my face. this isn't going to be a easy story to explain but i have someone who's willing to listen to me cry, whine and complain all night.

i was ready to let it out and let it go.