yours. a love story

so numb

{ Laura }

we got to the camp and i speed walked into justin's room. i wanted to sleep and god damn, my feet are killing me. i opened the door and sat in the bed, quickly taking off my heals. i sighed and relaxed as i saw justin walk in. i hated his ex so much. she's so stupid and his bestfriend is just so, annoying. how did he stand them? i have never been more uncomfortable in my life.

i saw justin walk in the bathroom, probably to take a bath. i grabbed my phone and looked through my messages. tons from delly and riker and a few from ross. i opened ross message first, expecting a 'i love you and im sorry being an asshole.' but no. oh hell no.

from " Ross 💖 "

laura, we are over, hope u are happy with ur little sergeant.

are you fucking kidding me? he just dumped me! he actually just dumped me! he asked me out, and said he made a mistake by leaving me and now, he did it again! he left me, again. i threw my phone away and held my tears back. im not cryin tonight. i have no tears left.

i grabbed a long shirt and took off my dress, slipping into the big large shirt. it looked like a dress. i placed the dress on my suitcase again and grabbed my make up remover wipes and started taking off my make up. im tired of people hurting me. im so done bro. I finished and placed my hair into a high bun, then laid in the bed. i curled up in the bed and waited for justin inpatiently. after a few more minutes, he finally came out of the bathroom. like always, not shirt and basketball shorts. he smiled at me and i felt like crying.

"please cuddle me." i said, almost in a whisper, hoping my voice didn't cracked. i frowned and opened my arms, gesturing him to come over to me. he smiled and jumped in the bed, hugging my body close to him

i hugged his torso, hiding my face in his neck, tangling our legs together. i sighed a bit and closed my eyes. i loved how justin holds me. he makes me feel save. and right now, i need him. but i don't want him to knew ross dumped me. not yet. i can't even tell myself he dumped me.

"baby, you okay?" he asked, looking down at me. i shook my head and his whole body tensed. i felt his heart beat rise up, i love how he cares for me like no other.

"just hold me, please. i need you." i said while frowning, my head still on his neck. his smell was amazing, and i was in love with it. his muscles were so masculine and i feel loved around him. "after all, im your fake girlfriend. treat me right." i said, making us both giggle.

"right. you're my babygirl." he said, kissing my head. i blushed, hard. my whole body was tingling. i felt the urge to kiss him but i didn't. i wasn't going to use my sadness as an excuse to kiss him, to love him. i leaned up and kissed his cheek, letting my lips linger. i felt him smile.

i feel so miserable. i love ross with all my heart, even though he has became so possessive and obsessive, i love him. and i just can't believe he threw out relathionship away like it nothing. i don't know how to keep a damn guy. i sighed and felt warm tear drops falling from my eyes down to my cheek. justin seemed to notice since he sat up in the bed, along with me. i can't believe ross left me with all my love, my heart and my soul. i hate him. so much. i told him it was the last chance and look how he wasted it.

"baby, tell me what's wrong. you're worrying me laura." he said, pulling me into his lap. i hid my head into his chest and held back my loud sobs. i wanted to be loved for one in my god damn life.

"just hold me please, and don't let go." i whispered into his ear, letting a few tear drops fall from my red eyes. "i cherish you so much justin, you always keep me happy. i dont know where I'd be without you." i said, practically pouring my heart out. he rubbed my back and kissed my head.

"hey it's okay. im always there for my 'girlfriend'. and always will be." he said, making me finally let out my loud, terrifying sobs. i sounded like a fuckin pig, but im hurt and so tired of giving my heart to boys who don't deserve it. im tired of boys telling me how i should feel, or how i make things so difficult.

justin sighed and laid back in the bed, with me on top of him. i swear i was crushing him but he assured i wasn't. i laid lifeless in his chest, hoping for all this pain to go away. i was so exhausted. i just want a happy life, a good ass, finger licking husband and a few more little feets running around. that's so little to ask bro like why can't i get it? all i get is complications. breaks ups, fights, my sister moving to new york, my bestfriend living at a camp in california. what else?

i closed my eyes and tried to sleep. i could feel justin's eyes on me so i kissed his chest and laid my head on his neck, trying my best to sleep. his arms wrapped around me entirely, i felt save. i felt relaxed. as i tried to sleep, i promised to never give ross another chance again. not anymore.

i woke up to the alarm, it was so loud. surprisingly justin was still besides me. he was awake tho. i looked at him and yawned. my eyes hurt so bad and i had dry tears in my cheek. i must look so horrible. i licked my lips and kept looking at justin's morning face. it was adorable. his eyes were tired but still beautiful, his hair was a mess but it made him attractive. his skin was way more soft and his pale face looked flawless. he was flawless.

"why are you in bed?" i asked, laying my head on his shoulder again. he smiled and pulled me closer. he was so warm, considering how cold his room was.

"i had to make sure you were okay." he said, kissing my head. i blushed hard. his words were so sweet and i couldn't take it.

"aw drew." i smiled, kissing his cheek. "then let's go, we have a lot of things to do." i said, getting off the bed. i honestly wanted to stay in bed all day but that'd be so sad.

justin stood up and walked in the bathroom. it was around 5 am in the morning. i sat back down in the bed again and laid my head in my small hands.

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i looked at all of justin's reclutes since they're all looking at me. i bet it's because of my red eyes or my pale fuckin face. i sighed and looked down hearing justin talk. i wanted to talk to someone but i didn't wanted to make justin sad. he already has so much going on and i can't keep worrying him. i looked around and found hanna, talking to her reclutes as well. i needed to talk to her. she knows the whole story and would probably understand me. i waited until justin finished his speech and looked up again.

"can i go talk to hanna real quick?" i asked, playing with the rings on my fingers. he kissed my head, making me relax a bit. i was so stressed, i swear im about to get hella pimples.

"of course you can, baby. you don't have to ask." he said, softly. his voice was sweeter than ever and it made me weak. again, he gave my forehead a small peck and walked towards his group, while i walked towards hanna. i waited until she finished talking. her group was small. smaller than justin's.

"hanna, can i talk to you? please i really.." i asked, not being able to control myself as my eyes started to get watery. her face completely changed into worry.

"woah, laura what's going on? what happened?" she asked, as she rubbed my shoulder. i sighed shakily, letting a few tears fall down from my face. i felt everyone looking at me.

"it's ross. he.." as i was about to tell her why i look so hideous and stupid, she pulled me away. we walked without saying a work towards what it seemed like her room. it was just like justin's. air conditioner, nice bed, big bathroom, and a tv on the wall.

"now, what happened laura?" she asked, sitting down and pulling me down with her. i laid my small hands on my thighs and sighed, wiping the tears on my cold cheeks.

"he left me."