Beloved

Aria

Halfan hour later we were on set. I couldn't believe what I was seeing.The scene was at the library of the bunker and damn it looked soamazing. All the books and the huge set up together with all thosecameras and people walking around. Before I was able to take all thisin and process, a cute, blonde girl pulled me away from Jared's sideand to a make up table. She pushed me onto a chair and started ondoing my make up. ''Hi sweetheart, it's so nice to meet you. I'mLauren and I'm gonna be doing your make up from now on. '' I smiledat her and let her do my make up. ''It's so nice to meet you too, I'mAlice. '' the woman smiled and started on my eyes. ''I know,sweetheart, I know. '' I shook my head slightly and let her finish mymake up. As soon as she was done, I looked into the mirror. That wasexactly how I imagined Aria to be. Flawless and beautiful. I thankedthe woman for her work and turned around just to bump into Jensen.''Hey Liss, we have to be on set now I...Wow. You look stunning. ''he breathed out, grinning at me. I blushed and let him help me getoff the chair. That was the curse for small people. I wasn't evenable to get off a freaking chair on my own. ''Thanks, PrinceCharming, you don't look bad either. '' I said, looking down at him.He had his typical Dean Winchester clothes on. Jensen took me to theset again and showed me a chair I had to sit on. I was expecting achair with the name 'guest star'on it, since I was only there to playa scene to show them my talent. What I didn't expect at all was thething I looked at right now. It was a blue chair and my full name wasprinted onto it with golden letters. Was I allowed to cry? Because myeyes started watering already. ''Is that really mine?'' I askedJensen and laughed when Lauren walked past me, threatening me thatshe would kill me if I would cry and ruin my make up. ''Yes, it'syours. We want you here Liss. We really want you with us in thiswhole thing. This is as important for us as it is for you. I will tryto make everything as easy as possible for you, okay? Don't benervous, it's gonna be fun. '' he kissed my forehead and sat on hisown chair. How did he know I was nervous? Well, he maybe could havefigured by my terrified look. Jensen and I ran over our lines onelast time when the director and Eric Kripke stepped in front of me. Istood up and shook their hands. ''Hi, I'm Alice. It's so good tofinally meet you guys.'' both of them smiled at me and a wave ofrelief washed over me. Thank god. They weren't some douchbags thatwould make my life a living hell, they actually seemed very nice.''It's nice to meet you Alice. We were so excited to meet you and areeven more excited to see you in action. The boys told us alot aboutyou.'' I blushed slightly and nodded when they turned back to get towork. Jensen and I walked over to the set and sat down on the chairslike it was written in the script. Both of us had a book opened up infront of us because that was how the scene started. When I lookedover to the camera, I smiled widely. They were all there to watch me.Jared, Mark, Misha, Richard, Rob and Matt. The director shouted''Action!'' and I knew that was my cue.

I sighed, pretending to read the book before Ishook my head and looked up, straight into Dean's eyes. ''Did younotice Sam being weird lately?'' I asked the Winchester, aquestioning look on my face. ''You mean the way he is completely offguard? The fact that he isn't eating properly and nearly ruined allour dishes because he smashed them against a wall?'' I nodded,sighing before shaking my head again. ''We should talk to him. Idon't know what to do, Dean. I hate him being so lost. He needscomfort.'' Dean shook his head, taking my hand into his, something henever did before. ''You need to talk to him, not us. '' I raised aneyebrow, confused by his words. ''You're his brother, Dean. He needsyou. You have always been his rock and the person he could lean on.''And again, Dean shook his head. ''You are the woman he loves, Aria.Sammy loves you and he is not gonna stop sulking around until youtalk to him and take care of him. Don't you think I already triedtalking to him? You know what he said? He told me to leave him alonebecause you're all he needs at the moment. Sam hates that we are sobusy working, that he is not even able to be with you anymore. Heneeds you, Ari.'' I nodded, looking down at my hands. ''Guys?'' Samwalked into the library and Dean quickly stood up, leaving the room.He knew we needed some time alone. ''Sammy, can we talk?'' Samnodded, sitting down next to me. ''Is everything okay, Aria?'' heasked with a concerned look in his face. I sighed. ''Am I not enough?I mean, am I not giving you enough? '' I asked him, my eyes restingon my hands. Sam looked confused. ''What? No! You are more thanenough. Just in case you didn't notice that yet, I love you and Ialways will. You are much more than I deserve, much more than I everthought I would get. '' Sam told me, his voice soft and his handstangled with mine. ''I love you too, Sammy, always. Tell me whyyou're so upset and off guard for the last couple of weeks. I need toknow what's wrong with you so I can help you.'' I begged, lockingeyes with the tall moose. Sam stood up and pulled me into a hug.''I'm not upset or off guard. I just miss you. I miss the moments wehave together. Everything that happens at the moment...It's a bigdeal and I don't wanna lose you. You don't know what will happentomorrow. Maybe I lose you or you lose me and then? We will alwayshave to live with the thought that we didn't spend enough timetogether. That we weren't able to really say our goodbyes. Maybe it'sover tomorrow and then? I'm scared, Aria.'' tears formed in thecorner of my eyes when I wrapped my arms around his neck. ''You'reright, we don't spend enough time together. We should change that.Don't be scared please...'' and with my last words, Sam leaned in tokiss me. Not a movie kiss, no. It was a real kiss and it was deep andso damn intense. We kissed, our eyes filled with pure lust and loveas he got rid of my shirt, throwing it to the ground, leaving me inmy black lace bra.