Beloved

You should know, before I startedhunting and when I had a normal job I struggled really hard to getout of Switzerland. I was living there in this town and all I wantedto do was leave. There is this old song by Vanessa Hudgens calleddrive. That was how I felt. What I was searching for, well I didn'tfind it in that town. I didn't want to just survive, I wanted to hitthe road and drive. Hit the highway and not coming home, I would'vecalled my parents when I arrived to tell them I was alright. I alwaysmeant what I said and went to go my own way. All I wanted was toescape that stupid town where nobody ever accepted me and that's whatI finally did, thanks to Sam and Dean. I was searching for answers Icouldn't get in that town or even this country. I wanted to do it myway and thank god I did because this led me the right way. I wasn'tgoing to stop for no one and I was glad I didn't. I spend time inbars wherever I was stopping by, lived in shitty motel rooms but Ifound my way and then one night, I found Dean at one of those bars.After that, he and Sammy taught me everything about hunting and Iwas hitting the road with them and after they died I hit the road bymy own. I promised myself I was nobody's and I just wanted to befree. I promised myself that I was the only one who will believe me.All my life I had been frozen. Before I left that town, I was a birdwith broken wings but when I finally escaped, my heart grew big and Ifinally started to be happy. Everything I locked away I let out and Ihad never been as full of life as I was back then. I finally found myway out of Switzerland and to America. When I was still very young Itold myself that one day, I was gonna go my own way and I did. I lostmy heart every once in a while, lost my mind and crashed down but Inever stopped fighting. I went my own way and look where it led me. Iwas having a toddler and a newborn, a husband, a house, friends and ajob as a successful actress. Other than that I save people's livesand hunt the things down that shouldn't be there.
Whenever Ilooked up at my bookshelf when I was a child, I imagined how everyone of those books lived. The wars they fought, the love they gave,the life they lived. Every character had it's own story. I even hadtwo very precious Supernatural books and whenever I looked at them, Iimagined Sam and Dean fighting monsters and Bobby telling his story.Every book has it's own little soul. That's what makes them soprecious and beautiful. Maybe, if you finished reading this book andit lands on your shelf or wherever you keep your books, you willthink about this and remember about my story. And maybe, if you'vegot the time and you feel inspired, you will one day take this bookout of your shelf and read it again. And maybe you decide to listento the songs that I mentioned in the book to get the right feeling.That's why, if you read the next page, you will find a whole playlistof those songs, in hope they inspire you just as much as theyinspired me. There is one last thing I gotta say though. Alice is meand I am Alice. My full name is Alyssa and Alice had always been mynickname. The main character is me. I wrote about my deepestthoughts, my biggest wishes, my greatest fears and my past. I wroteabout the way I act in different situations and about the way I am.All in all, this is an open book to my soul and the key to my heart.If you rode this book, you know just as much about me as I know aboutmyself.