Beloved

Confessions

Itwas already the next morning when we finally arrived on set. Jay andI went to sleep in my trailer, just to wake up by a knock an hourlater. I threw on some clothes and opened the door, Jay stillsleeping peacefully. ''I thought I'd come over and see how you'redoing before we have to be on set. '' Jensen said as he stepped intothe trailer, pulling me into a tight hug. I smiled softly, kissinghis cheek. ''I'm doing great, as you can see.'' I told him, pointingto my bed where my now boyfriend was laying. ''Thank god. Took himlong enough.'' J said quietly when I pulled him into the kitchen.''Coffee?'' I asked my co star and he nodded. After I handed him hiscoffee, I sat next to him onto the sofa. ''Yesterday you said youwanted me to open up for you. '' I pointed out and the actor noddedagain. ''I think it's time for me to finally do that.'' I told theactor, smiling softly. Jensen's features broke out into a wide, happysmile as he pulled me closer. ''I'm all yours until we have to be onset. '' he mumbled, grinning like an idiot. I took a few deep breathsbefore starting. I pulled up my sleeve to reveal the mark of cain.''That mark isn't fake. The reason why I'm not taking it off isbecause I can't. This is the mark of cain and I got it from thebiblical bastard himself. I got the first blade aswell and about aweek ago, I killed Cain. I had to, even though I wanted to save him.Everything you and Jared played and filmed over the last 11 years isreal. The whole Supernatural thing is real, Jensen. I was in hell,tortured by Alistair. I was in Lucifer's cage and came out soulless.I was doing the trials, killing a hellhound, saving my uncle Bobbyfrom hell and sent him back to heaven. I tried to cure the king ofhell. The only problem was that I didn't have anyone to go with methrought this. Crowely, the king of hell? He looks exactly like Markand remember the best friend I told you about? The reason I didn'twant you guys to meet him was because his name is Castiel and he isan angel of the lord. Jensen, I'm a hunter. '' I took a deep breath,closing my eyes. I was afraid of what he could think of me and wasn'tsurprised when he started laughing. ''Funny story, Liss. You got mereal good. '' Jensen pointed out. My heart was about to break in onemillion pieces. ''It's all true, Jen.'' Jared mumbled, suddenlystanding in front of the sofa. He sat down onto a chair and lookedinto the eyes of his co star. ''It's real. Cas is real, the creaturesare real. The reason why Alice and I weren't here yesterday wasbecause we were hunting down a ghost near Vancouver. '' Jensenlaughed again, shaking his head. ''Enough with that. It's a funnyrevenge for me pranking you a week ago, Jay but we have to get towork.'' I looked over to Jared, desperate and about to cry. I knew itwould be hard but that Jensen laughed it off, well I didn't expectthat. ''Hello there. '' all three of us jumped when we suddenly hearda female voice. A woman with short, blonde hair stood in my trailer,grinning down at us. I jumped up, pulling out my pistol. ''Alice,what the hell?'' Jensen asked, standing up aswell. The woman dashedforward, attacking me. ''Jared! The water!'' I shouted while I wasfighting with the demon. Jay knew exactly what I wanted and splashedsome holy water into the womans face. Her eyes went pitch black andshe screamed out in pain. ''What is going on here?!'' Jensen asked,panicking. I took my chance the moment the demon was distracted andstarted to exorcise him. ''Exorcistamus te imundus spiritus!'' Ishouted as the demon again screamed in pain. I splashed more holywater into her face and continued to exorcise her. Suddenly, a bigcloud of black smoke stormed out of the woman's body and out of thetrailer.''You're better not coming back, bitch!'' I shouted, pantingslightly as Jared took me into his arms. ''I take everything back.''Jensen mumbled with a shocked face and he panted aswell, plumpingdown onto the sofa. I got onto my knees, seeing if the woman wasokay. When I put two fingers onto her wrist, I sighed. She was dead.''CAS!'' I shouted, my head in my hands. ''Get your feathery ass downhere, man. '' The angel didn't take long to come down and Jensenjumped at Cas' voice. ''You do know that the way you are talking tome is disrespectful, do you?'' Castiel asked when I hugged him''You're used to it.'' I fired back, still hugging him. The angelwrapped his arms around me and I felt like crying. ''Could you takecare of her? I don't know how to get her out of here without anyonenoticing.'' I begged, looking up into the feather's eyes. The nextthing he did, surprised me a lot. He placed a tiny kiss onto myforehead, something he had never done before and nodded. ''I will.''he said, bending down to put a hand on the woman when both of themvanished. ''It's rude not to introuduce yourself to newbies!'' Iyelled, knowing the angel still heard me. He knew I meant Jensen butCas wasn't good with things like that so if he could avoid itsomehow, he did. ''Sorry, Jensen. He is that awkward kind of angel,not like Gabriel, he was pretty cool and talked a lot.'' I pointedout as Jared wrapped his arms around me again. ''You know Gabriel?''Jensen asked, still shocked by this whole thing. I nodded sadly. ''Hesaved me from a whole bunch of damn gods that were trying to eat meand his brother Lucifer. Gabe might had fun torturing me with beingthe trickster but in the end, he was a good man. He sacrificedhimself to save me and I will be thankful for that until I die. Ihope I can return this favour to him one day. '' So much pain washedover me when I thought about the people and angels I lost, it nearlykilled me. ''I'm in. Time of being lonely's over. '' Jensen told meand walked over to us, pulling us into a group hug. The last time Ifelt so loved was ages ago. When we pulled away after some minutes, Isighed, ruffling Jensen's hair. ''It doesn't feel too good to haveyou guys in danger. I'm not a fan of putting you through my shit.'' Imumbled, taking the last sip of my coffee. ''We decided to go throughthat with you. It's our decision, not yours.'' Jare said, squeezingJensen's shoulder as a sign of thankfulness for sticking with us. Itwas true, it was their decision but I hated having them in dangereven though I was incredibly happy about the fact that I finally hadthem by my side. I thought about the moment I killed Cain andstumbled down the stairs, weak. My biggest wish was having Jared andJensen with me, to hug them and kiss Jare. What I didn't know backthen was that killing Cain was the last thing I ever had to do alone.From now on I had two people with me, two people I loved, whosupported me and were ready to die for me if they had to. And I feltjust the same about them. I'd die for them without even thinkingabout it.