Beloved

The Book Of The Damned

It was the next morning and I was inthe library of the bunker, drinking my coffee when I heard prettyfamiliar footsteps walking down the stairs that lead to the bunker.''Good morning my angel.'' Jared said as he entered the library,pulling me into a very long and emotional kiss. ''Have I ever toldyou how much I love you?'' I asked into the kiss, breaking it with asmile. ''Multiple times but I will never get bored of hearing it.''Jare chuckled and kissed the corner of my mouth before sitting downnext to me. ''So, I've been checking through everything again. Doublechecking and uhm...'' Jare started as he put his bag with all thebooks and papers on the library table. ''The mark is a curse.'' Istated, looking down at my hands. ''Yea, tell me about it.'' Jaymumbled with a sigh. ''No, Jared. It's uhm...It's an actual curse.''I looked up at my boyfriend with a serious face. ''What are youtalking about?'' Jare asked, looking at me with a confused look onhis face. ''Crowley told me.'' I said with a sigh, looking back ontomy hands again. ''Or better Rowena, the witch I told you about, toldhim after she tried and failed to kill me.'' I mumbled, biting mylower lip. Jared looked at me in disbelief, shock written on hisface. ''What the hell happened?'' he asked, his hands supporting hisquestion. ''The mark protected me. ''Rowena didn't want to put medown, she was just pissed at Crowley because she thinks he's goingsoft. '' I said with a little chuckle. ''She's not wrong.'' Jarestated and I nodded slightly. ''Yea, well. After he and mommy dearestgot into a fight-'' Jared interrupted me with a confused look on hisface. ''Mommy dearest?'' he asked. I nodded again. ''Rowena isCrowley's mother.'' I said slowly, hoping the actor could process allthe information. Jare opened his mouth and closed it again, thenrepeated the same motion. I held up a hand and waved the subjectaway. ''More about that later.'' I said and looked at some of therandom books laying around. ''So, then he came and told me what shehad said. The mark is an actual curse. So anyway, I'm sorry. Iprobably should've told you that earlier.'' I mumbled, playing withthe book in front of me. ''Yea.'' Jare just said, still in shock.''So, Rowena can remove the mark. What does she need to do that?''Jared asked after a long silence. ''I don't care. I'm not teaming upwith that bitch...sorry, witch. '' I growled and emptied my coffee.''But she can take that mark off of your arm.'' Jared insisted but Ijust shook my head. ''No teaming up with witches. End of the story.''I pointed out before I stood up and left the library, letting Jaredsit there. I knew I was stubborn and maybe I should've been takingall the help I could get but damn for gods sake, it was a witch thatkilled my brothers, my family. It was a witch that made me suffermore than I did when I was in hell. Witches brought troubles and Ihad enough of them already. The day went by and I spend most of thetime playing with my Chevy, taking care of her and making sure shewas fit.

It started to get dark already and Iwas cooking dinner for my boyfriend and me. I didn't see him all daybut it was good like that. After what had happened in the morning,both of us needed some time to process. I was scared of fighting withhim, scared of losing him in some way so I tried to avoid every fightwith walking away. I did that already when I was a child and I foughtwith my parents. They always thought I would've walked away because Ididn't want to solve the problem but that had never been the truth. Ihated showing too many emotions and crying in front of people, thatwas why I always walked away. There was a few times I cried in frontof Jare, yes but that was never because of a fight. I didn't want toshow emotions and cry in front of other people, not even with myparents when I was a kid. I never wanted to show them that I wasweak, always wanting to be strong and brave. Maybe it was my bravadothat didn't let me show too many emotions and it took a lot to crackme. Sammy and Dean were able to crack me, though and Jared and Jensenaswell. Clicheè, wasn't it? ''Have you ever heard of the book of thedamned?'' Jay asked as he walked into the kitchen. Suddenly, my wholebody tensed up and I could feel the anger of the mark building upinside of me again. ''Why?'' I asked with a firm voice, biting theinside of my cheek so hard that I could taste the blood in my mouth.''I did a lot of research and figured out that this book has a spellinside it that could cure you.'' Jared said softly, walking up to meuntil he stood next to me. ''Don't ever lay hands on that book. Iwarn you, Jared Padalecki. If you even think about finding thatbloody book, just stop it already.'' I growled, my hands turning intofists and my whole body cramped together. ''Why? It can help you! Youtold me you didn't want to be like that anymore but whenever I find away to help you, you turn your back on me and tell me not to go afterit! WHAT DO YOU WANT, ALICE?!'' Jared's voice got louder and louderuntil he started shouting at me. I flinched at the volume of hisvoice, squeezing my eyes shut. I needed to stay calm. ''ANSWER ME!Why don't you allow me to save you?!'' Jare yelled at me and I hadnever seen him as upset as he was right now. All the anger wasboiling inside of me and the mark made it even worse. ''BECAUSE IDON'T WANT YOU TO GET KILLED!'' I screamed back at him and this time,he flinched at my voice. ''Charlie died trying to get the book so shecould help me! We were so far already! And it killed her! I don'twant to be like this anymore but for gods sake I won't let you die!YOU ARE EVERYTHING I HAVE AND I'M NOT GOING TO LET YOU DIE JUSTBECAUSE OF THE THAT DAMN MARK!'' I shouted, smashing my flat handagainst one of the kitchen drawers. Tears of anger started to form inthe corners of my eyes and I had to swallow hard. I again turnedaround, trying to flee and just run as fast as I could but the momentI stormed out of the kitchen, Jared grabbed my arm just a little tooharsh and pulled me back right inside his arms. He held me tight andsmashed his lips against mine, so hard that I thought I would getbruised. Although it hurt a little bit, I liked the way he kissed meand soon I moved my own lips along with his. ''I'm not going to die.You will have me clinging on your ass for a very long time cause I'mnot going anywhere. But let me save you, I hate to see you like that.No more running away. '' Jare whispered into my ear before he moveddown to bite into my neck. I nodded slightly and let out a soft moan.Jay, turned on by the noise I made, grabbed my thighs and lifted meup. He carried me to the kitchen table and put me down, starting toget rid off my shirt and my bra before kissing down my upperbody,biting and nibbling at every other spot. He unbottoned my jeans withhis teeth and when I laid hands on him, trying to unbotton his dressshirt, he grabbed my hands and held them behind my back. ''No.Tonight I'm gonna make the first step into saving you.'' he purredbefore his head went down and between my thighs. One thing was forsure; Dinner was nothing we cared about that evening.