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Not Beautiful (Ch.40)

Chapter 40

"I'm sorry Cameron, this was your wish and I accepted."

"Savannah, please don't jump. I love you. I didn't mean to say that, I was just mad."

My feet were dangling over the edge of Cameron's apartment. His body was inches away from mine, wanting to catch me.

I turned around and kissed Cameron's forehead.

"Goodbye, Cam."

My feet were no longer on the building. I was falling, hearing Cameron scream for my name.

My head shot up and I looked all over my room. Beads of sweat were traced over my jawline, my skin clinging to the blanket.

I took my phone from the dresser and looked at the time.

5:32am

Ugh, I only got 4 hours of sleep! I looked around the room, realizing I was home. I totally forgot about coming here.

Worst of all, I remembered the reason why I was here.

To get away from Cameron. It was weird, I loved him but he didn't seem to have the same feelings towards me.

I got out of bed and headed towards the shower. I stripped down and looked closely at the scars on my legs, arms, cheeks, and knuckles.

How much longer until they disappeared? Forever?

I stepped into the shower, letting the warm water loosen my sore muscles. I was so tired of being sad.

Being suicidal.

Being forgotten.

I decided from that moment on, I would be happy.

Hang out with people who made me happy, and always keep a smile on my face, no matter how broken I was in the inside.

After taking a shower, I climbed out of the bathtub and dressed into a flower print top, a boyfriend sweater, and some shorts with tights underneath.

I took my phone again and looked at the time.

6:40am

I decided to go run some errands to feed myself which was the least I could do.

I grabbed my phone, keys, and wallet and ran downstairs. I quickly slipped on my blue flats and walked to the grocery store around the corner.

Cameron's POV

I felt warm sunlight shine on my face, causing my eyes to peel open.

I looked around the room and found Nash and Taylor asleep on the floor.

I got off the bed and checked if I got any texts from Savannah.

I reached for my phone and turned on the screen.

Nothing. She didn't send me anything.

My heart shattered into so many pieces. I loved her so much and she didn't believe me. Why?

Why do I have to be so stupid?

It was almost 7am and the guys were planning to go to the beach today. I grabbed my towel and headed for the shower.

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"You guys ready?," Nash yelled in the parking lot. We had gotten ready for our trip to the beach.

We all had came, including Anna and Paige. They seemed happy and I was glad. But honestly, Savannah was what kept all of us close. It was strange, but true.