SHATTERED

Jealousy

"Feels like Ive been stab by a thousand knives.. Wonder how people's life would be better if I wasnt alive"

Cole

I stared at the bracelet Jayson gave me.. How can he do this to me??. He was my bestfriend.. But then I realized this was all on me.. We were a match but not a fit.. We were a dream but this is reality.. Thank you the friendship.. Now im hurting and its all on me.. I shouldnt have assumed on everything.. It was never his fault.. I love him..

He doesnt feel the same way about me.. Its my fault for giving in easily.. I tried to smile as I watch Denise flirting with Jayson.. It really felt like Ive been stabbed by a thousand knives.. The weirdest thing is that Jayson is trying to push Denise away..

But as Ive said.. Dont assume on anything.. Maybe the couples were just fighting.. The bell rang and I went directly to my next class.. Just then someone grabbed my wrist.. I turned around and saw Jayson smiling at me.. I smiled back and went inside my class

I walked alone the hallway.. Ive been hurt so much already.. But it's okay.. It's just a bad day not a bad life.. Suddenly someone tapped my shoulder.. Usually Jayson always does that so I did not turn my back.. Instead I continued to walk..

And still he was tapping my shoulder.. Again I did not mind him and continued to walk.. Still he didnt stop.. Annoyed I turned around ready to slap him.. "are you okay??" joy smiled.. "yeah.. i thought you were jayson" i said.. "i see" she smiled.. "have you seen your grades??" joy asked.. "yeah dont even mention it" i tried to sigh.. "i know right" joy rolled her eyes.. Joy and I went to our next class.. Values..

Where we learn bibles and stuffs about Jesus.. Mr. Hope is still our teacher.. I sat next to Joy.. got my textbook and the class..

Im so depressed I didnt even pay attention.. As usual the class was boring... Im bored.. I turned around and saw Jayson smiling at me.. He was sitting next to a window.. Makes me wonder.. Is he really in our class?? Or was he just sitting in??.. "the prophecy has already been fulfilled!! The rise of the antichrist!! The apocalypse!! End of the world! The zombies" Mr. Hope nervously discussed..

Has this guy even read the bible?? I rolled my eyes as he continued to discuss.. "muslims have started this war!! Osama binladin is a muslim!! So be careful muslims are dangerous they are to blame in all this stuff they are all terrorists!!" Mr. Hope continued.. "no they're not!!" I stood in anger.. "excuse me??" Mr. Hope asked..

"can people stop stereotyping things?! Muslims are not terrorists!! Terrorists are terrorists!! Muslims are people who deserved to be treated equally! Discrimination cant solve things.. Stop telling people who to hate" I tried to argue

There was a complete silence.. Students were staring at me.. Mr. Hope was in shock.. He was speechless.. "I dont want people to hate each other because of misconception" tears began to fell.. Yeah I was also thinking whats wrong with me??.. "This world should not judge people for their Sexuality, Religion or Political Views" I sighed.. Mr. Hope then took a very deep breath.. "Mr. Perry detention room please..

You're disrespecting a teacher" Mr. Hope smiled.. I laughed at how fucked up our society is.. "yes Mr. Carlston?? You raised your hand" Mr. Hope smiled.. I stared at Jayson in a 'what are you doing??' look.. He smiled at me and stood up.. He then looked at Mr. Hope.. "your class sucks! So suck my balls" he smiled.. Students laughed.. Joy is about to raise her hand but i stopped her to do so.. "very well Mr. Carlston please join Mr. Perry to the detention" Mr. Hope smiled..

Mr. Hope escorted Jayson and I to the detention.. We went inside and the room was a mess.. "you will not leave this place til six" mr. Hope smiled.. "but I have practice im gonna sing at the assembly and i have curfew by 7" i pleaded.. "not my problem" mr. Hope smiled as left the room.. "damn it!" jayson shouted.. "you didnt have to do it" i stared at him.. Jayson then smiled the sweetest smile.. "you're right! He's an asshole!" Jayson winked.. "thanks for standing up for me" i smiled as i sat beside him..

He held my hand but i slipped away.. "its me and you now" jayson smiled at me.. "now what are we gonna do??" i asked.. "i want to hear the song that youre going sing at the assembly" jayson smiled.. "im not doing it alone tho im singing with micah" i smiled.. "the head cheerleading squad cool" jayson giggled. I smiled then my smile faded as I looked at him.. "whats wrong??" jayson concernly asked.. "nothing" i smiled..

"cole you're my bestfriend.. I know if somethings wrong" Jayson stared at me concernly.. I was still silent for I dont know what to say.. "Denise is just my friend.. She likes me and I dont.. The thing you saw is for our video project" Jayson smiled.. I was still in shock as I stared at him.. "youre so cute when youre jealous" Jayson giggled..

I blushed as I threw him a crumpled paper.. "no im not!" i laughed.. "hahaha yes you are.. I know you love me" Jayson teased.. "ha! I would sell you to satan for a cornchip" I smiled.. We then laughed at our own stupid joke.. Until we stopped and stared at each other.. "I like me better when Im with you" jayson winked.. I smiled and turned my back I then saw Denise staring at me furiously.. She then walked away.. "she's a bitch you know but dont worry I got you fam" Jayson winked..

The clock turned six so Jayson and I were getting ready to go home.. Just when we're about to go out Jayson froze in shock.. "were locked" Jayson said.. "hahaha funny Jay" i smiled fakely but as I opened the door its hard.. "fuck!" i told myself.. Just then Micah passed by.. "micah!!" i shouted..

Micah turned and saw us "i knew you were in detention" micah smiled as she walked towards us.. "open the door for us please" i asked politely.. "i cant its locked" micah said in shock.. "hold on ill call the maintenance.. She said as she ran away.. "im doomed!" i cried.. "we both are" jayson agreed.. Seconds later Micah came back.. "maintenance is here but i have to go good luck bye" micah smiled..

The janitor stared at the door "sorry kids.. I dont have the keys" the janitor said.. I then stared at Jayson.. "kill me now" i started to cry

I grew tired so I sat at the floor while Jayson continued to bang the door.. "hey!! Open up!" Jayson said as he went towards me and sat beside me.. "people will judge us" i said.. "i know" Jayson said.. He then hugged me tight.. I stared unto his eyes.. He then touched my cheek and started to kiss.. I can feel his tongue rolling with mine..

I moaned as he started kissing my neck.. I took off his shirt and bit my lips as I stared at his body.. He then took my hand and placed it on his chest.. I slipped my hand from his chest down to his abs then to his v line..

We continued kissing as I unzipped his pants.. I slipped my hand under his brief and grab his hard rod and stroke it really hard.. I can feel the rocking of his body.. I pushed him away and smiled at him.. "what?" he asked.. "i wanna taste it" i smiled as i bit my lip.. He then leaned back and smiled at me.. I grabbed the rod and sucked it harder.. "oh! Fuck!" he smiled as he moaned.. I continued sucking til we reached the climax..

I wiped my mouth as I lay on his arms.. "i love you" i smiled at Jayson.. "i love you most" he smiled as he kissed my forehead...

Lunch came and I sat at the bench near the field.. Waiting for Joy and Micah because we still have to practice..

Suddenly Denise went and sat beside me.. "hey.. Do you know Jayson has a girlfriend??" Denise asked.. "really?? Who??" i asked.. "me" denise smiled.. "lets face it honey God made adam and eve not adam and steve hahaha gay people got no place in heaven.. So if you love Jayson let him be with someone who has a vagina to make him happy.. Not with someone who has another sword to be fenced" she smiled at me and walked away.

. I realized shes right.. Its better for Jayson to be with a girl than be with me.. I then took my notebook and continued to write down my poem..

"Feels like ive been stabbed by a thousand knives.. Wonder how peoples life could be better if i wasnt alive"