SHATTERED

Religion

"So many laughters I have to fake.. Feels like Im God's greatest mistake"

Joy

I felt sorry for what Ive heard.. I cant contain the sadness in Jayson's eyes.. He tried to keep himself from crying.. "I was scared that he might be included with the mess I made thats why I said dont" Jayson started to cry.. "Im sorry Jay" I tried to comfort him.. "I want him to be fired" He said furiously.. "He will be" Micah suddenly butt in..

"what do you mean" I asked.. "I heard from the little birdies Mr. White planted drugs on the lockers of the students he liked" Micah said.. "what??" Jayson asked.. "Mr. White is a drug dealer Cole and I found it out" she continued saddly.. "why didnt he tell me??" Jayson asked.. "read the journal and you'll find it out" Micah said.. Jayson then took the journal and turned it to the next page.. And began reading

Cole

Being a minister's child isnt easy.. People see you as a role model for their children.. They see you as a perfect person for their kids to follow.. You must be modest, Godfearing, faithful, honest, obedient and all those goodstuffs you see in the bible.. You need to be careful on what you say or what you eat or what you do..

You need to be the person they need you to be.. Even if thats not the person you truly are.. Even if its already killing you deep inside.. You need to reach people's expectations or all the blame will be thrown to your father..How much more when you're gay??. People will criticize your father for having a gay child..

Because one things for sure.. Churches doesnt care about gay people.. To them we are just a bunch of bacterias that needs to be eliminated.. To them we are just weeds that needs to be cut.. All they see is our actions that are gross to them.. All they see is our sin.. They forgot to see that we are also Humans..

I smiled as Micah came toward me.. "practice this sunday??" Micah smiled.. "I cant Im going to church" I said.. "does that thing still even exist??" Micah asked.. "we're christians so yeah" I smiled at her.. "why do you go to church??" she asked again.. "to worship God" I smiled.. "where is your God??" she asked.. "in heaven" I replied..

She smiled and asked again.. "have you seen your God??".. I sighed .. "nope" I smiled.. "then how do you even know he exists??" she sounded so confused.. "faith" I smiled.. "uhm" she was about to ask again when I interupted her.. "come to church with us this sunday" I smiled.. "sure" she winked.. The bell rang and I went directly towards my class.

I wore my pink tuxedo and black longsleeve matched with my milky white pants and chocolate brown leather shoes.. Not contented with my outfit I wore my light grey vest.. #ootd!.. I felt my phone vibrating so I took it from pocket..

I then opened the message and read it.. "brace yourself bitch because Micah Lopez is gonna blow your church with her fabulous outfit" Micah texted.. I smiled as I opened another message..

"see you at church babe" Jayson texted..

Did he just call me babe??. Omg! My heart is about to explode with happiness.. Is he gonna ask me to be his boyfriend already??.. I freaked out as I heard a knock at my door.. "lets go?" mom smiled at me.. I smiled as I nodded her yes..