SHATTERED

Just a Friend

"Life must go on for you my friend.. But as for me it has to end"

Micah

"I was mad at him that time" I began to cry as I explained my side of the story.. Jayson and Joy stared at me.. "its not your fault" Jayson smiled.. "hes right" Joy smiled as he held my hand.. "Denise was a such a bitch" Joy said.. "I wouldnt know because like Medusa I avoided eye contact with her" I rolled my eyes at the name Denise..

"she really thought Id choose her over Cole" Jayson laughed.. "guys Denise's celebrates her birthday party tonight right??" I smiled at them.. "omg lets crash it!" Joy winked.. "for Cole!" Jayson smiled..

I took a deep breath as I went for a retouch.. Were going to Denise's party.. "Dont do bitchmode" I kept on repeating myself.. Joy came inside the restroom.. "hows Harvard??" I asked.. "cool" she smiled..

I went out as Im done with doing my eyebrows.. I saw Jayson smiling at me.. "you look pretty" he smiled.. "thanks" I smiled back.. Joy went out of the restroom and we went directly downstairs.. We went inside Jaysons car.. "lets go" Jayson sighed as he started the car.. We drove towards Castle Avenue where Denise celebrated her birthday.. I thought about what I did to Cole.. He's nice he deserved to live..

I was blinded by my anger that I forgot hes my bestfriend.. I forgot that he was going through something.. Hes been through a lot already.. And I made it worst.. "stop blaming yourself" Joy smiled.. "Cole made a choice and theres nothing we can do about it" she continued.. I can feel the grief in her voice..

We arrived at the party and as expected students came.. We didnt know it was a formal party.. People were talking things about what happen recently.. I rolled my eyes hearing people talking about Cole.. "he's a great guy" one student cried..

"RIP Cole" some said.. "he deserved to live".. I want to laugh not because Im happy.. But because its funny how people started to care when youre dead.. "suicide is an act of selfishness" a guy said.. Hes obviously never been suicidal..

The three of us sat at a table not far away from the stage.. "Cole is just an overreacting drama king who killed himself for attention" a guy from the next table said.. Jayson was about to charge but Joy and I stopped him..

"no hes not worth it" I raised one of my eyebrow.. The emcee went to the stage and announced something until he finally introduced Denise.. "presenting the birthday girl Denise Pagan!!" the emcee happily announced

30 minutes passed and people started to get upset.. Theres no Denise that came out from backstage.. I started to wonder what happen to her.. I started thinking Karma came too fast.. "where is she??" Joy asked.. "how would I know??" I answered.. After many seconds I stood from the table.. "Im checking her" I sighed as I walked away towards the backstage.. I went inside and found Denise crying inside..

"what the fuck Den?? People were pissed outside" I said madly.. "its all my fault!" she cried, "what??" I asked confusely.. "someone took his life because of my insecurities" she cried.. "glad you know" I crossed my arms..

"i didnt know hes thinking of doing it.. My parents treated me the way i treat him.. And i never thought of it.. How am i suppose to live with this??" she cried.. I was shocked about what she said.. Now I know why I never saw her parents..

"I dont deserve this party.. I want to visit Cole.. But my sorry is too late.. I wanna kill myself" Denise cried.. "Denise dont say that!" I started to worry about her.. "Im not gonna lie and say its not your fault.. But Cole made his decision.. Now its time to make yours" I said as I went towards her.. "I never felt my parents' love..

Theyre not even here tonight in my birthday.. The only guy I love never loved me back.. And now someone died because of me.. I dont deserve to live" she continued to cry.. "you know suicide is not the answer right?? Suicide does not end the pain..