SHATTERED

The Bully

  "Life has treated me unfair.. I have feelings but no one cared" 

  I smiled as Zach walked me towards his room.. "my parents arent home so you can sleep in my room.. Ill go sleep in theirs" Zach smiled as we entered the room.. "thank you so much" I smiled as I placed my bag on the floor.. "sorry.. Didnt have time to clean my room" Zach scratched his hair.. "Zach its fine.. I owe you everything" I smiled.. 

"okay just take some rest and we'll talk tomorrow.. Call me when you need me" Zach winked as he went out and closed the door..I lay on the bed and continued to cry.. I'm thinking about killing myself.. Im too depressed to even think about anything..

 I wondered what would it be like if I die??.. Wonder how many people will cry if I die??.. Wonder what good things I did will they say theyd miss??.. Would people cry in sorrow or in joy??.. Maybe Im the problem? Maybe my life is destined to be miserable.. Maybe God really hates me.. Maybe Just maybe  

  I woke up when the sun hit my face.. I checked my phone and its still 6:30am so I went to the bathroom to take a shower.. I changed my clothes and went directly downstairs.. I was thinking about making breakfast so I went directly to the kitchen.. I got some pancakes and chicken from the fridge and started to cook.. 

 Minutes later the foods were cooked so I placed them on a plate.. I turned around and saw Zach smiling at me.. He had nothing but the pajamas on.. He also had a perfect fit body due to the fact that hes a jock and the captain of the football team.. His dark grey eyes stared at me happily.. "didnt know you make breakfast" Zach smiled at me.. "yeah these are just the simple ones" I smiled back.. "so tell me why did you run away??" Zach asked..

 "I didnt, they kicked me out" I replied.. "why??" he asked curiously.. "because" I took a deep breath.. "because what??" Zach asked.. "Im gay" I smiled with teary eyes as he stared at me in disbelief..  

  "wow" Zach said.. "I understand if youre kicking me out too" I smiled at him.. "yes youre leaving this house.. With me tho cause its almost 7:15 and we have class" Zach smiled at me.. "thank you so much Zach" I smiled at him.. "no problemo mister" Zach smiled back.. I went upstairs to dress myself up.. 

I looked through the window and saw Zach getting his car ready.. I smiled remembering Jayson.. Im planning to tell him everything.. I need him right now.. Our love is what makes me stronger right now.. Suddenly I recieved a text from an unknown number.. 

 "hey Cole!! Joy here!! Ive missed you so much!! Harvard has been a struggle for me.. But I made it! Thank you for inspiring me 

 -your forever bestie Joy-" 

 I smiled after reading it.. I miss her.. I suddenly heard a loud beep.. I looked at the window and saw Zach waving at me.. "lets go!!" he shouted.. So I quickly went downstairs and ran directly towards him..  

  I went inside the school and nothing changed.. People were staring at me with distaste.. I went directly to my locker and cried as I saw someone sprayed the word "FAGGOT" on it.. I looked at all the students and all they do is laugh and bumped me.. I opened the locker and took my values book..

 I closed the locker hoping I would see Jayson smiling at me.. But I didnt see him.. I began to feel worry.. Is he okay?? What did Mr. White do this time.. I walked inside the classroom but hes not also there.. I took my phone and started to text him.."where are you?? Are you okay?? What happened??"But I got no reply.. I started calling him but he wont pick up the phone.. I cant help but feel a bit of fret.. Mr. Hope went inside the classroom and the class began.  

Class was over and I'm still waiting for Jayson.. Where the fuck is he??!!. I called him again but then again he's not picking up.. "Cole lunch with us! I want you to meet my friends!" Zach smiled.. "sure! I'll catch up!" I smiled back.. Zach then went directly to the cafeteria.. "now youre sucking Zach's dick too??" Valerie stared at me with distaste.. 

I turned around not minding her.. Suddenly Denise throw a cold slushy at my face.. "cheers gayshit!" Denise laughed at me.. Everyone on the started to laugh.. "God made Adam and Eve not Adam and Steve" Valerie laughed.. Feels like the world is against me today.. "be kind.. Be positive" I whispered to myself as I ran to the restroom and burst into tears.. It hurts it really hurts.. I called Jayson and this time he picked it up.. 

"where are you??" I cried.. "Home.. Im not feeling well.. Sorry I was not able pick up your calls" Jayson said in a cracky voice.. "I wanna kill myself Jay" I cried but then he hanged up..

  I went outside the restroom and saw Micah staring at me.. She brought a towel and handed it to me.. "those two dumb bitches wont stand a chance on me.. Theyre the definition of insecurities" Micah smiled tried to calm me down.. 

"thanks" I tried to smile as I wiped everything from my face.. "lunch with me??" she winked.. "I cant.. Zach wanted me to join them.. Come with me??" I smiled.. "its a big yes for me!" Micah smiled.. We then went directly to the cafeteria..  

  Micah and I sat with Zach and his friends.. There were 10 of them so we were crowded in one table.. "ooh table of hot guys hahaha I was born for this" Micah smiled.. "guys meet Cole and his friend Micah" Zach smiled.. 

And his friends waved at us.. "and Cole this is Kyle, Christopher, Franz, Nathan, Joel, Prince, Kenneth, Benjo and Carl" Zach smiled again and Micah and I waved at them.. We chatted with them while we started to eat..  

  Micah and I drove to a store to buy her plugs.. Its her monthly visit so she needs plug.. I waited for her in her car and while waiting I saw something interesting.. I saw Mr. White talking to someone.. In his outfit he must be a gangster.. What is Mr. White doing talking to a gangster??.. Suddenly both of them went away from the store..

 Out of curiosity I went out of the car and followed them.. I followed them until we reached to a vacant lot.. I hid behind the wall for them not to see me.. I took a pic and saw Mr. White gave something to the guy.. "this is all the drugs??" my eyes widened for what Ive heard the guy said.. "yes" Mr. White nodded.. 

Oh my god Mr. White is a drug dealer.. "I fucked you for this??" the said angrily.. "yes" Mr. White agreed nervously.. I took my phone and tried to take a pic.. I took 20 pics and I left.. This is for you Jayson.. To give you justice.. He will be arrested.. I went back to the car but then its gone..  

  I went inside the store but Micah was not there anymore so I decided to go back to school.. 

 walked along the hallway and students started to make fun at me.. I tried to ignore them and went directly to my locker.. I burst into tears I saw pictures at my locker in the middle was a pic of Jayson and me kissing at McDonalds.. Each corner was an edited pictures of me with a dick on my forehead.. 

With words that says "im a gayslut, look im a uniporn!, i like sucking dicks, international fag and etc." I walked backwards and students bumped me hard I fell on the floor.. "how does my boyfriend taste like bitch!" I looked up and Denise suddenly slapped me so hard in the face every students laughed.. "hes mine Cole guys are made for girls" Denise smiled.. I cried so hard and ran towards the fields while students laughed behind me..

I cried as I stared at the grass.. Shes right.. I dont deserve Jayson.. I would just ruin him.. I took my notebook and continued my poem.. "

Life has treated me unfair.. I still have feelings but no one cared" I closed my notebook as I saw Micah walking towards me.. "hi Micah" I tried to smile.. 

"where the fuck have you been??!!" she said furiously "I had period on my pants and on my car because instead of changing tampons I was out there worriedly looking for you!!" she continued.. "Micah Im sorry" I cried.. "you know what dont talk to me for now" she said as she walked away...