SHATTERED

Suicide

"With every drop of blood from my blade.. Know that our memories will never ever fade"

Micah

We stared at each other thinking about the horror Cole felt.. "just because he's gay doesnt mean he wanted to suck dicks all the time" Joy rolled her eyes.. We arrived at St. Peters and went to the room where Cole's funeral was held. We sat in front of Cole's coffin.. I stared at his picture where he smiled the sweetest smile..

"you guys make a good couple" I smiled at Jayson.. Jayson smiled back at me with teary eyes.. Suddenly the door opened and Valerie came inside.. I was shocked how dare she enter Cole's funeral.. She smiled as she looked at us.. She smiled as she came towards us.. "Can I join you??" she smiled.. "sure" I faked my smile.

She then stared at Jayson with her eyes full of sympathy.. "Cole wanted me to give you this" she smiled as she handed Jayson a phone.. "why did you have Cole's phone??" I asked.. "Cole gave it to me the day he died..

He said that I'll give this to Jayson" Valerie said.. "why??" Jayson asked.. "he wants you to speak up Jayson.. Rape is a very serious crime.. Ive heard it.. Mr. White confessed" Valerie replied.. "I cant.. Im scared" Jayson cried.. "why??" Valerie asked..

"Mr. White is a faculty they always win" Jayson sighed.. "he wont because we have proof.. Fight for your right Jay.. Just not for yourself.. For Cole" Valerie smiled.. Jayson nodded bravely "I'll bring that White down" Jayson said proudly..

"justice for you Jayson.. Im so gonna be at your side" I smiled.. "wait what about Zach??" Joy asked.. "what do you mean Zach??" Valerie asked.. "Zach and his friends raped Cole" I answered.. "oh my god.. That filthy thing should be stopped!!" Valerie said.. "yeah" I sighed..

"I really want to cut off their dicks and put it in their mouths and choke them with it" Joy rolled her eyes.. "they won't get away with it" Valerie sighed.. I took Cole's journal and started to read.. "uhm hello I cant hear" Jayson smiled.. "oh sorry" I smiled.. I opened the notebook and started to read..

Cole

We went home and rested for a while.. My dad still didnt talk to me.. How can an ordained church pastor talk to his filthy slutty gay son??.. My mom was of course also upset.. My anus was bleeding because I was fucked by so many guys..

I want to tell them I was raped.. But it would only bring more trouble and chaos in this world.. Plus who would believe that I was raped?? Who will rape a gay guy?? My words might be used against me So its all completely useless.. I took my notebook and finished my poem.. This is it. Its final Im killing myself.. But how?? When??..

I stared at the mirror and smiled.. "you are the problem Cole! Youre worthless.. Youre filthy! Youre nothing!" I cried as I stared at myself.. "youre so done" I smiled.. Then I realized maybe there's hope.. Maybe I just need to open up.. I smiled knowing exactly where to go.. I changed my clothes and went off to school

I took a deep breath as I entered the school.. I was not surprised if students make fun of me.. I got used to it.. It dont affect me anymore.. Im so good at being so hurt that I cant feel anything anymore.. Ive grown so cold.. Colder than I can ever imagine.. I smiled as people judged me.. I smiled as students threw papers at me..

I just dont care anymore.. I paused as I faced the door.. I took a deep breath as I knock at the door hoping he wont fail me.. "come in" I heard Mrs. Divino's optimistic voice.. I took a very deep breath as I entered the guidance councilor's office.."Mr. Perry how can I help you?? Come have a sit" Mrs. Divino smiled.. "Thank you" I smiled..