SHATTERED

Depression

"Im shattered and it's no one's fault.. It's just that Ive already grown so cold"

Joy

Im still mad at her.. Denise Pagan a professional faker.. Since when did she cared about Cole??.. She's a pathetic insecure creature.. Like every actions she made makes my blood boil.. She is one of the reason that Cole killed himself..Reception began and the foods were served.. "the foods were good" Jayson smiled.. "check it carefully or its also your funeral next week" I jokingly said.. "what you think this food has poison??" Jayson smiled..

"maybe" I smiled.. "come on Joy dont blame her" Jayson smiled at me.. "after what she did?? Who do I blame??" I stared at him.. "Joy let us not judge people okay??" Micah smiled as she touched my hand.. "its an observation not a judgement.. Excuse me Im going to the restroom" I smiled as I walked away.

I went inside the restroom to do some retouch.. I want to go home.. Because I cant take fake acting of Denise anymore.. I could kill her.. But then we lost a life we cant afford to lose another.. Also its illegal to do so.. I dont want to spend my life in jail.. So I have to be forever patient with her attitude.. Suddenly the door opened and Denise entered..

"hey Joy!" she smiled.. I tried to do some fake smile.. "How are you coping up??" Denise smiled her eyes full of sympathy.. "since when did you care??" I asked.. "Joy I know you wont forgive me.. But Im sorry" she said.. "please Denise I know youre happy Cole is dead so that you can happily get into Jayson's pants.. Sucks for you he's gay" I smiled.. "Joy I tried not to be a bitch anymore" Denise sighed.. "yeah like anyone believes that" I stared at her..

"what is wrong with you??" Denise asked.. "did you ask yourself that when you bully Cole??" I asked back smiling at her.. I can sense that shes starting to get upset.. The expression on he face and the she closed her fist makes me smile thinking Im so ready to fight her back..

"I could slap you right now but I wont because its my birthday and I wont let losers like you ruin my day" She smiled.. "Losers? Hahaha" I laughed.. "what youre gonna kill yourself too??" She smiled.. My blood was burning inside me.. I cant control myself anymore I raised my hand and slapped Denise so hard she turned and faced me she was about to cry.. "Happy Birthday Denise!" I smiled at her as I walked away..

Party was over and we went directly to Jayson's car.. "you guys are going home??" Jayson asked.. "we want to be with Cole long enough before the burial" I said as I looked through the window.. Tears fell as I realized why is it so fast?? Feels like yesterday when he was with me at the train station.. Cant believe Ill be with him at his burial tomorrow.. Jayson started the car when Micah came inside..

"slap?? Joy why didnt you punch her??" Micah laughed.. "its an act of mercy.. Its her birthday remember??" I smiled.. We all laughed and we zoomed off on our way to St. Peters.. I felt my bag and remembered Cole's journal.. I took it and opened it.. "shall I continue to read??" I asked.. "yes please.. And louder cause Im driving" Jayson smiled.. Then I began to read

Cole

Grades and GPA they determine your intelect but never your future.. What if some students are just naturally born artistic and never in academic?? They would forever feel useless.. if education is all about climbing a tree then the fish will live his life thinking hes stupid.. Education system should change.. Because life isnt all about passing its about learning..

Thats the reason many students cheat because they dont care about learning anymore.. All they care about is passing.. Yes studying is good but not to the point that you pressure students that they forget they're still youth.. We can always have our future but our present will always pass..