SHATTERED

Sexuality

"There's so much going on inside my head.. If theres a God he'd let me die instead"

Jayson

"I never thought that he'd meant it. It was indeed our last day together" Joy started to cry.. "hey You had to go" I smiled trying to comfort her.. "If havent left.. We would still have more time together.. I couldve stopped him from doing it" Joy cried.. I hugged her tight.. "dont blame yourself" I tried to calm her..

"Im not blaming myself.. Im regretting things.. Those two are different" Joy smiled.. "right" I giggled.. "that was very steamy by the way.. My freaking vagina is sweating" Joy laughed.. "yeah but I enjoy every second of it" I winked.. "yeah but did you??" Joy asked as she gave me a look.. "did I what??" I asked nervously..

"uhm suck him up?? Oh my god that was weird forget I asked that" Joy covered her face in embarrassment.. I laughed so loud people in the funeral stared at me.. I bowed my head and stared at Joy.. "youre funny" I giggled

took Cole's journal and opened it to the next page.. I was about to read when someone with a bitchy attire entered the room.. I looked away thinking it was Denise.. "Joy!" I heard her came towards us.. "hey cutie" I heard her but still I didnt look at her.. "whats wrong Jay??. Come sit Micah" Joy smiled as she assist her to sit.. "hey Micah" I smiled..

"bitch Denise is throwing a party.. I love to crash it down" Micah smiled.. "we will" Joy smiled.. Micah stood and went to Cole's coffin.. And even if I cant see her face I know she's crying.. She was Cole's friend.. I opened the journal and began to read..

Cole

Im coming out.. Maybe this is already the right time to finally be honest with myself.. Will dad disown me??.. I don't know.. Come what may..I went inside the class pretending everything was normal.. Like Joy was still here.. Like nothing even happened between me and Jayson.. Values class is as usual very boring.. I looked back at where Jayson was seated.. He was still there smiling at me..

But as I looked right there was just an empty seat.. Mr. Hope is still discussing about apocalypse and zombies and stuff.. I rolled my eyes listening to more bullshits.. Suddenly the student behind me gave me a folded piece of paper.. I opened it and read it..

"Boys Locker room at 6:30 pm be there

-Jay-"

I looked back and saw Jayson smiling at me.. I smiled back and looked at Mr. Hope who's now discussing about Hogwarts and Narnia..

The class is finally over and I went directly to my locker to change books.. I closed my locker and got surprised by someone.. "Zach" I smiled.. "hey uhm do you know how to do math??" Zach smiled.. "oh Im sorry no.. I failed math so.." i smiled.. "oh no its okay thank you" Zach smiled as he walked away.. "hey gayshit!" Denise smiled as she bumped me to the lockers.. "are you okay??" Micah asked as she tried to assist me.. "want me to kill her??" she asked.. "no please no" i begged.. "yeah just punch her" Micah smiled..

I took a deep breath and walked towards the hallway to my next class.. I noticed some students looking at me with disgust.. I took a deep breath and not minding them judging me.. "hey faggot" a jock came and bumped me hard I almost fell.. Students laughed some just didnt care.. One thing inside my mind.. Kill me now.