the fact that i never feel anything if someone dies or leaves. i'm gonna fucking miss the shit out of them but i never feel anything, i don't feel sad, i don't feel happy, i'm not mad, i just don't feel anything. I'm not sad and that fucking bothers me, i want to be sad, i'm going to miss them so fucking much, why aren't i sad?
teagan just left but even though we were super close i dont feel anything. i was so close to tea and whenever they said they might leave i got super sad, but now that they actually leave i don't feel anything. no emotions over here, nuh uh.
