"I'm just so sad all the time"
"Well it's a good thing I plan on fixing every single one of those wounds"
The one where an innocent-beyond-belief teen meets the bad boy who might not be so bad after all
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It's that beautiful time of the year where everyone gathers together to celebrate Christmas and drink hot cocoa around the fire as they exchange presents to one another with their loved ones. You know what else it is?
IT'S LILAC'S BIRTHDAY!!!
Lilac is turning 18 and I physically can not comprehend that we're going to have been together for 4 months already. He makes me the happiest man alive and I have absolutely no way of knowing how to accurately portray the emotions running through me.
Lilac hasn't had a panic attack in about a month now and I couldn't be more ecstatic. So many anniversaries and important dates are happening on Christmas and I'm not quite sure what to expect for the next week as I plan something for him.
Scrolling through my phone I look at all the cute, dorky, silly pictures I have and save them to print out later. Each one even cuter and more precious than the one before. I'm not proud of how many pictures I have of Li, 156 to be exact, but how can someone not get pictures of such a beautiful child.
Another thing I feel the need to mention is the fact that winter formal is also an event coming up that I am not thoroughly prepared for. Lilac keeps saying he doesn't want to go but the brat is a horrible liar that I'm not believing him for a second.
As of now, I have had no comfort, attention or embracing of Lilac for the past 3 days and am dying because of it. I don't want to spoil anything of the surprise and Li has taken everything badly since then. He's been close to having panic attacks and my poor baby is shedding more tears than I'd like him to be.
I've already gotten confirmation from his sister to distract him on Saturday to do some "last minute shopping" or something so Sunday, aka Christmas aka Lilac's birthday aka our anniversary, can be stress free and spent with my favorite person. I've been taking lessons on how to cook a few of his favorite meals, as well as setting up the area I want to take Lilac to for my asking him to the dance.
His house has a gigantic backyard and I want to fill the whole area with little Christmas lights and Polaroid pictures of him and me for him to keep when he has bad days (which I know he does even though he refuses to tell me). Speaking of the proposal, I'm just about to head out to go grab the most essential part.
Hopping in my car, I make a short drive to go to the nearest jewelry store so I can find the most perfect ring out there, because that is what he deserves. Walking in, my eyes go directly to the display at the front desk containing a simple but amazingly detailed, silver ring that I just know Lilac would adore.
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