The Playgirl meets the Playboy

Chapter 37: Miss you so bad

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BIANCA VENNISE

Dalawang buwan na ang nakalipas ...
Sa dalawang buwang iyun ay hindi sya makuntento sa kung anong meron sya.

One month that she need to heal the pain...

And one month to give herself a free to live and to feel free that shes still breathing.

Mabilis na proseso ang lahat.
Maayos na ang pakiramdam nya.

"Mom, i want to go home" she said between her sigh...
Her mom looked to her sincerly..

Her mom stayed in states with her and her sister too.
Nauna ng umalis ang ama nila pabalik sa Pilipinas dahil naroon ang kompanya nila.

"Thats not good sweetie" her mom said. Ibinalik nito ang tinggin sa newspaper na hawak.

"But, " tumigil na sya dahil hindi naman sya mananalo.

"Heres your phone . Libangin mo ang sarili mo. Remember just one hour only one hour" anito at inabot ang cellphone nya

She looks to her contacts.
Napa ngiti sya ng makitang naroon parin ang number ni Xian.

Lumayo sya sa ina
Upang tawagan ito pero laking gulat nya na nagpalit na ito ng sim card.
Talagang gusto na ng lahat na kalimutan sya.

She decided to look to her facebook account .
Parang may kumirot sa puso nya.

Mukhang wala na syang dapat pang balikan . Isang buwan pa lang naman ah? Buhat ng umalis sya. Pero talaga bang nakalimutan na sya nito.

Gusto nyang bumalik sa Pilipinas para simulan ang pag iibigan ng pag ibig nila. But shes wrong, masya na ito sa  filing ng iba.

Kasalanan nya naman.

Dapat ba syang maging masya?
Himdi bat yuon naman ang gusto nya.
Bago sya umalis ay naka usap nya pa si lei..

Maling mali ang desisyon nya na ipaubaya si Xian kay Lei.
Maling mali..
Lei already say sorry to her, she accepted her apology..

She realize that she really love Xian so bad.. she cant believe that she fall inlove to a playboy.. she sighed.
She hope that Xian still love her .

She wants all that thing back..
But that was easy to say
Hard to do..

'All i want is someone who can love me no matter how hard to be with me'

One month past away.
At sa bawat oras na lumilipas ay mas  lalo pa syang naiinis dahil mas lalo pang lumalalim amg pagtinggin sya sa lalaki.

She thought Xian really loves her?
She thought Xian really wants to care her?
She thought Xian can wait for her?
She thought Xian can do whatever she wants? But what is this?

Bakit parang iba?
Bakit ibang iba? Masaya na ba ito sa piling ng iba?

Maaaring tanga nga ang maging gaya  nya. Tangang-tanga dahil pinakawalan pa nya ang lalaking minamahal nya. Pakiramdam nya ay niloko sya ng kanyang sarili.

Siguroy kung una palamang ay inamin na nya na  pareho ang nararamdaman nila sa isat isa ay baka masaya sila ngayong nagmamahalan?

For what?
'Everything happens with a reason' that was  she knew..

Maybe Xian and her are NOT compatible to each other.
MAYBE destiny dont agree to their relationship? Its turn into a relationshit?
Maybe they are not for each other.
MAYBE she can find her the one..