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Fade Out

Genre: drama, kinda tragic (?)

Hoshi and Woozi both know that keeping their relationship is hard since they're idols. Hoshi loves Woozi with all his heart and he believes that Woozi loves him too.

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"Soonyoung. We need to talk." Woozi said. Hoshi looked at the younger and was confused to see the serious look on his face. But he nodded as well. Woozi walked, motioning Hoshi to follow him. They stopped at side of the busy street in Seoul. Woozi looked back at Hoshi still with the serious expression and cold stare.

Hoshi has been thinking about the past events with Woozi. He can recall how Woozi never became affectionate to him anymore. As if he doesn't love the older anymore.

"Your cold eyes,
Your tearful words,
Make me predict a break up so I tensed up
For a moment I can't say anything"

"Soonyoung. I don't think we can continue this anymore."

Hoshi's breath hitched.

"In front of the almost changing traffic light,
Your heart flickers as well
The strange sights,
The chaterrings on the street,
All seem like they're laughing at me"

"I... I can't feel the love anymore. But don't get me wrong. Its not you, Soons. Its me. Yes, I still care about you but I don't want to hurt you as well."

Hoshi remained silent, not knowing what to do.

"Baby tell me why
I don't see the you that I knew until yesterday
Baby tell me why
My hands that used to hold you can't hold you anymore."

Hoshi stared at Woozi and noticed his stressed face. He's tired. I don't want Jihoon to feel tired.

Woozi looked up at Hoshi, guilt still eating him. He knows inside that he loves the older, but not the way he did before. He felt bad for not telling Hoshi that his love for him is fading. He doesn't want Hoshi to hurt more if they'll continue in this relationship because Hoshi is still important to him. All the elder did was to love him truly and Woozi just wasted that.

"You say that our love is over, that we are over
Only words I don't want to hear linger in my head,
The word "goodbye" thrashes down my ear
I become a small dot and am fading away"

"What do you want to happen between us, then?" Hoshi was surprised that he still managed to talk. He knows what the younger will answer but he still wants to hear the words from Jihoon's mouth.

Woozi took a deep breath.

"I want us to break up, Kwon Soonyoung."

"I try to look through my head
I try to say anything that I know
But my impatient heart only produces tears
And in the end,
I couldn't hold it back and tears fell."

Soonyoung became silent after hearing those words. He expected Woozi to say that but he wasn't expecting that this will hurt too much.

Instead of using his mouth, Hoshi's eyes spoke for him. Tears started streaming down his face. He wants them to stop but his hands felt numb so he just let them pour.

Hoshi looked into Woozi's eyes, hoping to see something. But all he saw was that coldness and sadness. Hoshi knows that the younger cares, but only because they have a past.

Hoshi doesn't want to push Woozi to be in a relationship where he isn't fully willed to be in. So even though it hurts, Hoshi wants Woozi to be happy and he will do anything to make him be. Even if he needs to let him go.

"Baby tell me why
In my faded eyes, I can't see you anymore
Baby tell me why
With just the words "don't go", I can't hold onto you anymore"

Hoshi wiped his tears but his eyes betrayed him and continued pouring out his bitter tears. He doesn't want to cry in front of Jihoon but he can't stop himself.

At one point, Hoshi wanted to say "don't go" but he pushes that thought at the back of his mind and simply because he wasn't that selfish.

"You say that our love is over,
That our love is over"

Hoshi, even though his heart was broken into pieces, managed to send a smile to Woozi's direction. He reached for Woozi's cheek and caressed it. He also walked towards Woozi and looked at his face lovingly. For the last time.

The face that he already memorized, he keeps on staring on it because he knows that this will be the last time that he'll see it this near.

He wasn't expecting what happened next.

Woozi kissed him.

Before Hoshi can respond, Woozi already broke the kiss. He smiled at Hoshi and wiped his tears.

"Hyung. Please be happy. I know you will found someone way better than me and someone more deserving than me." Woozi said. Hoshi held Woozi's hand and kissed it.

"I will. And promise me Ji that you will do it too. Be happy." Hoshi said. Woozi nodded then he let go of his ex - lover's hand. Although both of them will see each other again at the dorms, it won't be the same anymore. And it will never be.

Hoshi felt the hot tears streaming down his face but this time, he just let them be. More tears started to fall as he watched Woozi walked away from him and from his heart as well. Hoshi released a sad smile.

"Even if you can finish me, I can't finish you
The hot tears are not all there is to it
When I open my eyes, it feels like you would be right next to me
But you already became a dot and are fading away..."

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I'm sad :(

Anyway, this is inspired by a song entitled "Fade Out" by K. Will. Its so awesome go listen to it. 💕 it's Korean but I used the English translation.

Expect for fluff next time! I've been having sad stories these days hmmm.

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