My life and stuff

Chapter 13

I start my day with getting yelled at. Apparently, today is all my fault that my sister is "late". Even though she and I walked out at the same time. I hate being the older sibling. I never chose this. I sometime wish I was never born, or born in a less old-fashioned and strict family. But on a lighter note I'm not too tired!

Math: test oh my yeesus Christ I hope I don't fail. I feel like I'm going to throw up, like there is actual vomit in my throat. Who knows might pull a Phil Lester and swallow my vomit. Then again I think this unit wasn't to difficult, I understood it more. It was rise/run and stuff. Luckily I finished my homework right before class ended.

English: another test. It's basically writing a paragraph with 3 main topics. Yawn I had to stay after for a bit to finish it. Oddly specific we had to highlight the different parts with specific parts

Study hall: TIME TO LOOK AT PICS OF VIC AND LOWKEY STALK HIM

Health: Boring we took notes. The. They talked about self harm...Lots of people laughed >:( I was near tears. They laughed about how some people could/do self harm. One was how some people rub their arm with an eraser until it burns and literally half the class tried and was like that's dumb it doesn't hurt ahahahhah. I just stared at my paper blinking tears away. Then the teacher rapidly mentioned how some people go more extreme with blades on their thighs. I jumped in my seat and kicked my legs a bit when he said that. It made me kind of uncomfortable with the whole class there not so silently judging. The bell rang for another class and I jumped again. I feel really dizzy now, like I might pass out. It should go away soon. Yeah I'll be bored and less jiterry in a bit.

Lunch: So I found my best friend cuzwhywouldntI  fan girling about K POP in the cafeteria. I left the band hall where my fellow emo trash were. She and I hung out with one of our other friends in town hall / lobby. He touched my back and I feel loved. He's gay btw so not like that. Idk why but I love it when people touch my back like yusssss please! Lol it was so funny he is super tall and somehow mages to fold his legs enough  to fit into a chair and he said to my friend "sit on my lap daddy" and we died of laughter. I was tempted to say "yes princess" lol that would've been hilarious! Yeah then they were talking about stuff idk I felt awkward and out of place so I felt kind of grey the whole day, kind of like my depression was kicking in again. But I wasn't too worried, sure I have my doubts if my friends even like me sometimes but that's okay because they don't seem to hate me so I got that going for me. I see that everyone else seems to have the types of friends that they can casually put an arm around their shoulders or ask them to hang out that weekend. Like being stuck in mud and seeing people run away from the zombies chasing you and they just tell you to run. I hate that feeling.

Biology: I love this class. Wow never thought I'd say that. There's one kid that sits next to me that's pretty nice. Well he hasn't done any of the homework, and literally all the teacher does is to check if you've done it if there's words on paper and that's it. Last night it took me 10 mins to do the homework. That's a god damn miracle in highschool. We learned about water molecules and played with glitter it was fun! I stayed after to ask more question I was curious about. Yeah I know I guess I'm kind of a nerd maybe. My teacher seemed impressed so I hope my grade goes up! I have a 78.8%.

I AM FREEE YES I AM BLESSSEEEDD

Today my little sister is turning 10!!!! I can't believe it at all!!!!!!!!!! I rushed in and attempted to do winged eyeliner. It looks decent for a first time. We're on our way out of town, basically to the next state, to eat dinner with family. I ain't complaining it's the type where they cool in front of you and I get friend rice so I'm not complaining.

We stopped to get my sister a scooter and thus don't have the "right" one. Le sigh.

IM STARVING I HAVENT ATE FOR LIKE 7 HOURS LETS EAT!!!!!

Ohhhh I see that they're setting up and about to make what I think is fried rice. I love this. when they cook in front of you. I ordered some fiiiinneee shrimp. Mmmmm, this is so good, I'm pouring yum yum sauce on my food. MMMMMMM THIS IS AMAZING NEVER STOP THIS FLOW OF FOOD. 

Time to spill some tea with my cousin mua hahahahahhahaha

I'm a little child that's tired let's go home.

Good night!