My life and stuff

Oh lalala!

Yee I know it's been a while sorry!

Anyways, on to the tea:

At the track meet, I got really hot since we were inside and we were exercising. I took off my sweater, but we have to wear tank tops, and that shows my arms, and I hate showing my arms, or more than I need to really. I was saying how I feel arm-naked, and gross. So he let me borrow his sweater. Listen...idgaf if ya'll think it's relationship goals, I see it as friend goals. No one's ever done that for me before. So yeah, I wore it pretty much the whole time. Boi gave me like tres (3) hugs. OKee, thanks I guess. Now that the tea intro is done, time for the juicy stuff. 

Yesterday I was in track (duh) and we had to wear uniforms with a tank top that showed our back. While I was waiting, my friend put his arm on my shoulder (keep in mind he did this with my other friend to) and then he did this one thing where he had his hand on my back and pushed me, so I leaned back and he kept on pushing so I wouldn't fall. (Same thing for my other friend). Skip skip... track and all was good, we had a tough day. Aight then we on the bus, just him and I (this is the tea) and we were all kind of cuddled. His head was on my shoulder and I leaned my head on his. My back was pretty much on his chest, like I could feel his breathing. Then some dumbass walked by and was like "mmmm y'all cute!" Then I timidly said "we-we're not together, like not d-dating". Then I got a text from my technically biological dad, who I did not want to talk to. I missed my other dad who was in Pennsylvania (we live in VA). So I started crying a bit. Then I put my head on his shoulder and just stayed there. Then he asked if I was okay. Well, I wasn't so I said, no I'm sad. Then we kind of held hands...(stop, no, before ya'll start screaming). It was more like a few fingers intertwined. Yep. Well, I asked if he liked me and he said "yes...but as a friend". So I'm there like haaaallllleeeeellluuuujjaaaaahhhh hell yee! This is really great, since it would be super awkward. He's turning 19 in a month. I'm 5 years younger. Ew. GRACIAS! 

Okay, so I feel super awkward now. We were both in the athlete's clinic for injuries. He talked to me then, I complimented him on his shirt. So that was nice. But today I felt bad since I barely talked to him and felt like I was ingonring him. Idk why, but sometimes I just distance myself for a while. Yeah, I probably have a problem, luckliy I'm going to a doctor soon! It was also embarassing today since I was the only one there for shot put and I had to do a lot of conditioning. But it was on my own. I really hate doing stuff where I'm the only one doing it. Then, my coach got kind of mad at me for locking a door I wasn't supposed to lock. Oops. I feel really bad now. UPDATE: Better now because I've calmed down a bit. Yes, everything will be fine I'm not an embarassing mess, worse could happen. Alright good night.