Dear Connor Murphy

Chapter 4

~~~~~~Authors note~~~~

Thanks to those of you read this story. Props to you all. You're loved. :) Again sorry for killing of Zoe. -MistyStar247)))))))))))))

The Murphy's stood at the table, watching Evan's reaction to his letter. Evan sat there in shock, his brain tried and failed to make out the explanation in his head. Mrs. Murphy looked solemnly into Evan's face. "You knew her didn't you..?" Evan looked up at her, his eyes making contact with hers. "I knew of her, yes." He said almost hesitantly. "B-but, I didn't know about..." Evan's voice stopped, the rest of his sentence carried away, lost for words and thoughts. 

Connor looked at the meek boy, his eyes scanning him up and down. He seemed honest enough, to him at least. 

Mr. Murphy watched the boy, unbelieving his words, not wanting to believe his little girl was gone. He didn't like this, not one bit. Especially this kid, Evan. 

Mrs. Murphy smiled, her mind put her into a false pretense. "Were you and Zoe  good friends? " 

"Um, yes Mrs. Murphy, h-her and I were great friends." Evan felt bad for lying to her and her family, especially to Connor. He felt his face go red even thinking about his name. Evan felt very pathetic. Connor looked in his eyes, his arms crossed across his chest, he looked at Evan with doubt. 

"Splendid!" Mrs. Murphy said with such enthusiasm. Her heart fluttered with joy, masking her sorrow through a happy feeling. Evan looked down, kinda ashamed. 

Evan called Jared later that day, explaining the letter and the situation. "Oh my god, I can't believe you Evan. " Evan sighed, exasperated. "Jared what was I supposed to d-do. Mrs. Murphy looked so sad.. And I couldn't disappoint Connor. " Evan blushed and looked down. "Oh my lord, you are so gay. I swear you're a fucking flower." "J-jared I am not gay!!" Evan said frantic. "I- I dont like Connor that way. " Evan knew he was lying to himself. I mean straight people didn't get wet dreams about other boys.... did they? 

"Suuuuure" Jared said giggling like a girl. "A-anyway.. Jared I need your help.. I need to convince Zoe's family that we were friends.." Jared snorted through the phone. "Wait wait, you want to show that you, and ZOE MURPHY were friends? You? With the prettiest girl in school? Wow, you are insane." Jared said with an amused voice. Evan bit his lip. "That's not the point Jared, will you or w-will you not?" Jared laughed, "Wow, almost sounded confident there. Yea sure what the hell right?" Evan smiled passionately, "Really, you'll help me?" Jared chuckled through the phone. "Yea sure, anything for my best friend." Evan felt his smile drop, he knew deep down that Jared didn't really want him as his friend. "Yea sure um y-yea" Evan replied. 

Jared and Evan meet up on Saturday. They had both decided to write out the conversations  between Evan Hansen and Zoe Murphy.

"Jared no, that wont work. In the letter she gave me she said that her and I had been friends this year and that she never told me she loved me.." Evan said, correcting his 'friend' Jared. "Yea yea yea, You never knew she had a serious depression problem? But you knew she had family problems??" Jared asked in a quizzical voice. "Well yea, I mean everyone who knew her did, but they don't know that. I think it makes perfect sense.. " Jared nodded as he finished up one of the emails. "Here," Jared said, "Hows this sound, Dear Evan Hansen, its been awhile since we talked, I didn't know you had a gay crush for my brother. Care to comment?" Jared read out the first sentence in a 'girly' voice. "Jared, No!!" Evan said panicked. 

For the rest of the night the two boys typed out letters between Evan and Zoe Murphy till the two of them had enough letters between Hansen and Murphy. "Sincerely, Me." The boys said together, finishing their last letter.  

~~~~~ Author's note~~~ 

AAAAAH Ok so sorry guys. I still feel guilty about killing off Zoe, I am trying to put together kinda like a switch universe I guess.. I don't know I just go with the flow. Sorry for any plot holes. And misspellings and grammatical problems. Love you all! - Mistystar247