Dear Connor Murphy

Chapter 5

Evan and Connor sat in an awkward silence. They were sitting in Zoe's old room. Her things exactly the way she left them when she died. "You know.. Zoe and I.." Connor began, breaking the silence between them, Evan was picking at his fingers, a nervous tick, something that made his anxious nature show. "We, weren't close.. I think, she hated me. You know she didn't put a lot in her letter to me. It's rather fucked... " Connor looked down, he started to tap his foot on the floor. "y-you know... Zoe loved you." Evan said, Hansen didn't really know if Zoe loved her brother, but he assumed so.. Connor seemed to like his sister.. some what anyway. 

"You know she told me you were, well, awesome.." Connors face scrunched in disbelief, "Zoe, Ms. Girl Perfect, thought I was cool?" Evan blushed and smiled. "Well yea, I mean she looked up to you... She said that your sense of style was really cool and that you were totally amazing. " Connor looked Evan in the eye as Evan unknowingly to Connor, spilled his heart out to him. "I doubt that, but hell, continue. " Connor said. "To her you were her hero, able to save her from all harm, but she was too scared to tell you, she wanted to but couldn't." Evan blushed and looked down. "She loved you more than anything, but couldn't find the courage to say I love you." 

Connor felt his heart swell with a longing. But he didn't know for who. He missed his sis. Missed harassing her, smoking weed in her room just to piss her off. Drinking all the milk just to annoy her. He missed when she was little, how she would follow him everywhere, saying 'Bruda, bruda, where are we going?' Connor felt his eyes start to water a little as he heard what Evan had to say to him... But something in his heart told him that these words were from Evan himself. 

Soon the room fell silent again, Evan felt embarrassed at saying those words. "C-connor, do you want to-" Evan was cut off by the black clad boy. "I am going to smoke something." Evan watched as Connor walked over to a drawer and opened it, he took out some kind of drug... the makings for a blunt, Hansen realized. "Wh-what are you doing Connor?" Connor smiled with a glint in his eyes. "Smoking pot, want a hit?" Connor asked him as he started to roll the blunt. "N-no I am good.." Evan blushed hard. Evan felt a fluttering feeling in his chest. 

Connor started to smoke the blunt, his mind became hazed as he lost control of his actions and his mind. "You know Evan, you're pretty cute.." Connor took hold of Evan's chin and made him look Connor in the eye. Evan felt his face turn into a deeper shade of red. 

"I uh.. T-thank you.." Evan looked down, his chin still in Connor's fingers. Connor released Evan's chin, moving it to stroke his fingers across the blushing red boy's cheek, moving his finger to mess with his mouth. "Your mouth is very pretty for a boy.." Evan felt his heart skip a beat, he felt his submissive nature bend to the will of Connor's dominance. 

"I guess I'll just make it mine. " Connor pushed his mouth to Evan's, Hansen's eyes went wide from shock, then they started to slowly close, his own mouth started to keep in time with Connor's. Their tongues mixed and swirled together, locking them into a passionate kiss. 

Connor broke the kiss, leaving Evan to be a blushing, needy mess. Evan looked up at him with hooded eyes, his face burning with heat. "definitely what I expected.." Connor said as he wiped some of his saliva off of Evans bottom lip with his thumb. Evan soon after realized what just happened. "I um, I s-should go." Evan got up with a start and left the room as quick as he could, leaving a determined, confident, and high Connor behind.  

Evan walked home, pressing his fingers to his mouth remembering Connor's tongue and mouth. Evan blushed hard and started to run home. 

He definitely wasn't going to tell Jared what happened tonight.