You would travel to the ends of the earth for him. He was your one and only. You threw it all away to just be by his side. He was the one you could trust in, the one who saw right through you, but did he know this huge secret you kept from him? You...
Heaving, Sweating, Marvelled. I stood there, frozen as if all time had stopped when she walked out, trying to swallow what had just unfolded. My head felt like it was going to split open, I stumbled back into the staircase, decreasing my cold body onto one of the steps. The boards that constructed the structure I was upon began to creak, being ever so more audible within seconds. A hand delicately placed on my tense shoulder, it was Lina. She began to shake my unresponsive body, whatever she was saying masked by the white noise of my thoughts spinning. She mouthed Y/N's name, my ears instantly pricked.
"Why do I feel like I am in the middle of something huge? You spoke about her with such vivid colour in your expression but I didn't realise she meant so much more than you let on Kook.." She lipped slowly, slipping her lean body down the staircase and around to the foot of my crossed legs to catch my sight. It conflicted my thoughts into a frenzy, her eyes melting into mine with such sincerity yet fear.
"Wha-what do you mean?" I retorted bluntly, chocking on my words like I felt sick saying them, I think I already knew.
"You're really that blind huh? She is enamoured with every fibre of your being. I admit, hands up that I did overlook your phone on multiple occasions to see your adorable conversations with her." She confessed, raising her hands and displaying a bright smile. My breath was sucked out of my lungs. What she said, ringing in my ears like a siren. My heartbeat pounded.
Y/N...No. Does she like me?
My heart wrenched, throat enveloping itself. I instantly coughed, fear ingesting me like a cloud of black smoke. Why did I feel this way? Lina sensed the fear in my eyes.
"Do you not feel the same way?" She questioned, her face falling and her once twinkling demeanour shadowed while I stayed mute. My conclusions incapacitating me. I toyed with Y/N, treated her like my obedient pet, I ran away with her, and heck did she leave it all willingly. I did this. And she put up with it all because it was me. I always felt like it was my duty to be by her side, she always has been. I would go insane if she wasn't there. She fit into the equation always so well. Was she even happy with herself? A tear escaped my lashes, Lina gripped my shoulders nimbly in attempt to regain my focus.
"Look, Kook. I am no relationship guru, so you don't have to take my advice. But at least give her some space to figure it all out, then explain how you feel. It's not in any way your fault so whatever is going on in your head it's illegitimate okay? I do admit, I like you Jungkook but, with how your feelings are right now? It's not wise to make a decision. I can help feeling a sense of guilt." She firmly interjected. Playing about with her glistening rings, distracting herself from her sudden confession. "See you in practice, good luck. Send me a text if you need me." Bringing me into a hug apprehensively and mumbling by my ear. She then raised herself, quickly grabbing her bag and coat, wrapping herself up. She faked a weak smile and left the apartment. I could sense her unease.
I lost it. Jumping up, I grabbed my phone violently, my palms perspiring and my breath erratic. Although I listened diligently to Lina's words. I had to call Y/N. Just only to hear her voice, to see if she was okay. I misdialled her number multiple times, pounding my muscular fingers upon the delicate screen, sixth time lucky. My senses spiked, the chime of her ringtone blissfully playing, there on the floor by the doormat her phone was dancing about. I felt so unstable, if I didn't find her now, something even worse could occur. Collecting her phone hastily, I froze. Looking at her live wallpaper for her lock screen. It was a live photo of us euphoric at a karaoke bar. A tear managed to manifest itself upon my cheek. I ripped a coat of the rack and burst out the door into the December storm.
Nevermind I shattered her reality. Nevermind I fooled her. Nevermind I chased her, lonely and wreckless. Nevermind I was so fucking selfish.
I am Jeon Jungkook.
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A/N: Chapter 1! I hope you enjoyed this chapter once again. I would just like to thank everyone for such nice comments on the prologue. I hope this chapter didn't break your heart too much, what is in store for both Kook and Y/N? Now both out in a raging storm? The night closing in menacingly.
