Making It Count (Titanic Rose Fanfiction) part 2

Chapter 16

Roses pov

I awoke by myself in bed, with no Josie next to me as she slept at George's I got up and hopped in my long awaited shower. I stood under the head of the shower making the water drizzle off me and soak my red Auburn curls until they were brown. For once in my life since Josephine was born I was by myself and I could take as long as I would like in the shower. Without anyone waiting, banging, or barging  in on the door.

I let the water consume myself. Soaking my skin till it was soft before going wrinkly. I then slowly turned the shower handles off watching the water go down the drain. The water fell off my hair going round the spiral before waiting a few seconds till the weight was to much for it and dropped. I just stood there standing looking down my feet and body thinking about how far I've come. Jack.

The only reason why I'm here. Why Josie is here. The reason why i'm riding a horse properly today. The reason why I'm here in Santa Monica. But as I look to my hair to see the colour as well as the curls spring to life. I look at the water slowly draining out of it. Am I letting go too soon? Or is it time? What if I'm not ready to take the next step? What then? Everyone will be hurt. Crushed. It's happened once and I don't want it to again. Me, Jack, and Josie were the ones hurt. I took the next step. It worked out well for me and Josie. But not Jack. I broke his heart. And it shattered mine. I want everyone to be happy in every decision I make. I guess the only two questions on my mind is, what do I do with John? Does he stay or does he go? Will he take the step to come with me to New York after the shoot? Or will I have to stay here with him? And what about George? What will I do with him? It's gonna be hard to leave him behind. But I guess he's used to that anyways. BUT ITS NOT FAIR ON HIM! HE'S FAMILY! AND NO ONE STAYS BEHIND ROSE! NO ONE! I'm taking him with us. He's probably been lonely all these years. I'm going to take all the boys with us. And there's no other way out of it.

"Rose", I heard John bang at the door, "Rose it's me"

"I'm coming! I'll be out in a minute!", I got out of the shower and wrapped myself up I my towel, "you can do this Rose. You can do this", I spoke to myself in the mirror. I then opened the bathroom door before the main door.

"-whoa", he looked at me up and down.

"Come in", I immediately shut the door behind him, "I'll be ready in a few minutes. You can sit down and have something if you'd like", I offered him while I began to put light makeup on in the bathroom before getting changed into a white t-shirt and brown pants, "I'm ready", I walked out.

"Wow. Well you're certainly ready", I went over to the fridge to get my breakfast and ate my apple, "very nice healthy breakfast Rose", he commented, "in fact I think this is far more nicer", He the pulled out a necklace that had my name on it 'Rose'. "Since I gave Josie a necklace I thought what about you", he held it from his fingers, "you like it?", he held it in the palm of his hand. My thumb then traced the silver minted circle that was made to be a coin. And in the middle it had my name Rose, "here", I turned around and he put it on me.

"I don't know what to say", I held it.

"Nothing at all", he leaned in and kissed me.

"Mmmmmm", I wrapped my arms around his neck.

"Alright we need to go and get Joe", he stopped. He then took my hand and we walked out the door.

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We picked up Josie but it's still to early to go horse riding. So we decided to run around the pier for an hour while they're getting ready. We did side show alley as well as all the rides. Me and John took turns. We also did a few family games and won some tokens and prizes. I was the the first one to run out of energy so I decided to sit out while John and Josephine continued on.