Pleasure and Business

Chapter Seventeen

Chapter Seventeen

He held my hands, looked me in the eyes and said it.

“I am married, and I have a child”.

It took me a few seconds to realize what I just heard, I felt so numb as if I were drugged. And then it hit me, Kevin is married. I pulled my hands from his, and put them on my mouth, my eyes never leaving his. I stood up and started to walk back slowly. My eyes were tearful; I was shocked to the bones. I was disappointed. He disappointed me and I was mad at myself. I usually have a sixth sense, I usually trust my guts but this time my sixth sense and my guts betrayed me. I couldn’t wrap the idea in my mind.

All these thoughts invaded my mind in a few seconds. He was still sitting on my bed, looking at me while I stood shocked.

“You let me fall for you” I said in a very weak voice that cut the deadly silence in the room.

He stood up and walked towards me and put his hand on my arm but the second he touched I jerked and extended my arm to keep him away from me.

“Do not touch me.” I said in a low yet very firm voice tightening the robe on my body while I paced in my room.

His hand fell to his side and lowered his head.

“Can I explain?” he asked in a very weak tone.

“Explain what? How you committed adultery with me? How you made me fall for you? How you pinned me to that hospital’s wall and fucked me while your child and wife were god knows where?” I replied in a low tone at the beginning of the sentence but at the end I was yelling so hard that my lungs were about to explode.

He ran his hands in his head and turned in a sudden movement and sat on the bed. I looked at him realizing that I was right, I could not be happy for a long period. This is the bad thing I was waiting to happen, I expected some obstacles in my work but not this. At this thought I went out to my kitchen, brought an opened chardonnay from the fridge and went back to the bedroom where Kevin was still in the same position. I sat on the couch and drank from the bottle.

“Get out of my house Mr. Jacobs, I am taking the week off.” I said to him in a low voice while looking through the window. I felt him approaching so I turned to look at him and makes it clear that he is no longer welcomed in my bedroom or in my life.

“I am not leaving this bedroom before explaining to you” he said in his very firm CEO tone. Even though right now I am so mad at him, I am so mad at him that I can chop his head off, but he is still Kevin Jacobs who intimidates me, whose blue eyes make my heart stops.

“You can explain and I will listen to you because it is your right to explain, but I am telling you now, nothing will change, but if you’re going to talk, I want the boring details, don’t sugar coat anything I want to know how you met, when you slept together, your feelings towards her, when did she have you child, everything! This is your chance to be completely and utterly honest with me, and IF I find out later that you lied about the silliest detail or you forget to mention a stupid detail, you disappear from my life for good! Do you understand me Mr. Jacobs?” I asked him with the coldest and most threatening tone ever, enjoying this power I never thought I had in me. And before he gets the chance to reply I added “and don’t think I am giving you a chance here, all I am doing is giving us a chance to coexist as two human beings who work together” I continued raising my index as if I were threatening him, in fact I was.

He stood up, took the wine bottle from my hand and drank almost half of it at once then gave it back to me. He put his hands in his pockets and started pacing in my room while I am looking at him waiting to start talking.