College Life: Freshman Year

3

Normani's POV

My roommate Choie and I are discussing my upcoming birthday party when my phone displays a text message from Lauren. I quickly read it and put it aside. So many possible responses come to mind. The first being "Seriously? When? I'm ready right now."

Choie notices that my demeanor has changed. "Normani, I have never seen your eyes bulge like that. Is everything okay?" I shrug off her statement and she grabs my phone before I can stop her. "What the hell? Is this from Lauren?" she asks. I nod again. I'm officially at a loss for words. Please, Choie, let's drop the subject. I start feeling faint.

"I can't believe this is the same Lauren you were in a relationship with. That message is so hot. I can tell she has something kinky in store for you. I'm totally straight and even I want to take her up on that offer. Answer her before I do."

"What do I say?"

"Well, do you want to have sex with her?"

"More than anything in the world."

"Then tell her, but not like that. Be nonchalant about it. Make it seem like you're only doing this because you have nothing else to do."

I text her, "Yeah, I'm not doing anything else tonight." The text message may have been nonchalant but I was feeling anything but that. I jump onto my bed and start dancing around to some rap song Choie put on because she said she was feeling lit. I beckon for her to join me and she finally gives in. "To you finally getting laid after six weeks," she says during our celebration.

I really hit the jackpot when it comes to roommates. Choie Sumpter is more than a roommate, she's my best friend. We have everything in common, including our Old Money upbringing. She, more than anyone, is hoping things work out for Lauren and me. When Lauren and I broke up, she held me for five hours and stayed positive while I cried on her shoulder. No one else has ever showed me that kind of consideration.

Our celebration is put on hold by an alert from my phone. It's another text message from Lauren. "K. Be here in 20 minutes. Don't keep me waiting."

Choie grabs my phone. "She's a feisty little twat, isn't she?"

"Is it wrong that that's turning me on?" I ask her.

Choie starts laughing. "I think it's hot. I love being dominated sometimes. I just wish that dominant personality of hers would rub off on her brother." It's actually not hard to ignore the fact that Choie and Lauren's brother Laurenzo are dating. The two of them are extremely vocal in bed and it isn't rare for me to fall asleep to the sound of them having sex in the next bed. I actually don't mind anymore. Choie would do the same for me when Lauren would spend the night and I've been told that Lauren and I are quite the screamers. The memory of those nights with Lauren is starting to turn me on again. I can't believe she's going to have her way with me tonight.

Choie brings me back to reality. "Normani, it's been five minutes. What are you going to wear?"

"This," I tell her. "Why? Is something wrong?"

"Well, you're about to have sex with Lauren Jauregui , the future lesbian It Girl."

"What?"

"Well, in case you haven't noticed, she's filled out in a certain area on top...and she knows how to flaunt it. Lauren's hot. She has senior girls creaming over her. Plus, the bleach blonde hair. Oh my goodness. And not to put any pressure on you, but Zendaya Coleman is after her. Zendaya fucking Coleman. She gets any girl she wants. Laurenzo is really good friends with her so that's how I know all of this. She throws these wild girls-only parties. Everyone is drunk off their ass and hooking up with each other. Her next party is the same day as yours, which is why you have to bring your A-game, Hamilton . Lauren is the only freshman girl invited to Zendaya's and Zendaya says she has something special planned for Lauren that night."

"Lauren wouldn't fall for Zendaya."

"Hello! Lauren is a freshman. Zendaya is a senior, a hot senior. I hear she modeled for Abercrombie & Fitch. If Lauren dates her, she'll be invited to all the hottest parties and when Zendaya graduates in June, Lo could take her spot and have any girl she wants."

Choie had said a mouthful. I was starting to think this was a bad idea. Maybe I should just give up. No, Normani Hamilton never gives up. Lauren is my girl and I'm not going to let some arrogant senior take advantage of her.

"Choie?"

"Yes?"

"To the lingerie drawer."

Choie is beaming. "That's my girl."

We start rummaging through my drawer that contains every piece of lingerie that I bought when I was with Lauren. None of it seems right for this moment. I reach for something pale pink at the bottom of the drawer. It's a lacy thong. Nothing too special, but it's loaded with sentimental value. This is what I was wearing when Lauren and I lost our virginity to each other. It was one of the most special experiences of my life.

Choie notices a tear roll down my cheek. I immediately wipe it away and look at her with sad eyes. "This is what I was wearing when we lost our virginity to each other. I remember her body trembling underneath me. We were both so nervous, but we knew it would bring us closer together. Choie, I swear it was so perfect. There was a moment when I was so scared because she wanted me inside her and I had no idea what I was doing she kept reassuring me that I was making her feel good. When she'd tremble I'd hold her hand and let her know that what we were doing was really beautiful and that we're in this together."

Choie grabbed my hand. "Honey, please don't be disappointed if tonight isn't special or if Lauren acts differently than you remember. I don't want you getting hurt. Tonight is just sex, not making love and you have to treat it as such."

Choie is right. I change into the pink thong and a black dress that Lauren loves. I put on some flip flops but Choie says they're too juvenile so I put on some black strappy heels. Shit! It's time to go! I can feel the butterflies in my stomach already.

"Normani, you look amazing," Choie says as I get ready to leave. "Lauren is going to cream when she sees you."

I take the stairs up to room 505B, Lauren's room. I wonder what she's doing right now. Is she nervous? Is she having second thoughts? When I reach her room, it dawns on me that I am officially Lauren's fuck buddy. I swear this won't happen again.

I finally gather the courage to knock on her door. "Hold on, Normani. I'm coming."

"Without me?"

"Cute," she says sarcastically.

She opens the door and pulls me in right away. I was expecting her to be fully dressed or even in lingerie, but I wasn't prepared for her to be completely naked and kissing me against the wall. I pull her closer and she whispers in my ear, "I've been wanting you all day." That's enough to make my body tremble. I need to feel her. I take off my dress and toss it aside.