Loving You

Chapter 22

A/n: another chapter. flashback po ito kung bakit ayaw bumalik ni Anya sa Europe(kayo na po bahala sa'n sa Europe nyo gusto) 

sorry natagalan ang pag update. Enjoy Reading :)

6 years ago

"big sis, let's go to our tree house." Chloe said. She is my younger sister, she is 2 yrs. younger than me and I was 10 at that time, Ate Deny was 16. The three of us were so close, we're inseperable. We always protect each other. syempre mahal namin ang isa't isa.

"but Chloe, Mom said you need to rest. " Chloe has a heart problem, hindi siya dapat ma stress or gumawa na kahit na ano na makakapahamak sa kanya.

"But, big sis, I'm so bored in here, Ate Deny is not here, she's with her boyrfriend, of course, I want to have some fun too." I smile at her, ganyan siya kapag wala si Ate Deny, kung minsan nga pinagseselosan niya ang boyfriend ni Ate kasi nga wala nang time si Ate sa kanya

"But Ate Anya, is here. Are you not enjoying my company?"I pouted, pretending as if I was disappointed. Alam ko naman na mas close talaga sila ni Ate and I never questioned why nor I got jealous.

"Of course, I'm happy but" she pouted and giving me those puppy eyes.

"ok2 you win, let's go to the tree house but you have to promise me that you have to be careful and behave. understand?" she nodded. Naglakad na kami papunta sa tree house namin, it's a 3 minute walk from our house. Our house is located near to a forest dahil na rin sa condition ni Chloe, she needs to breathe fresh air. 

pagdating namin sa tree house,   excited na tumakbo si Chloe paakyat sa pataas. Ang hyper talaga neto kahit kelan. umakyat na rin ako. 

we were enjoying playiing dolls and all nangbigla nangyari ang nakakatakot ko. She's starting to breath heavily

"Chloe, a-are you okay?" tanong ko. I'm starting to shake.

"ha.. ha.. In..inhaaler."  Inhaler? I started to look around looking for the inhaler that she was talking about, unfortunetly hindi ko dala yung medications niya, aahh, I close my eyes and calm myself

"chloe, just hang in there, ok, " dali-dali akong bumaba at tumakbo pabalik ng bahay,

When I reach home, I saw Ate  Deny and his boyfriend watching movie

"Ate,," I said, catching my breathe

"What the- what's wrong?" Ate deny asked worriedly at me. "Wait, where's Chloe?" 

"tree house." 

"What?!!!" I winced when she shouted, buti nalang anjan si kuya Jared, 

hindi ko na sinagot si Ate nagmamadaling tumakbo sa kwarto ni Chloe para kunin yung inhaler and her medicines. nang makuha ko na ito, tumakbo ako pabalik sa tree house, 

I stopped when I saw Kuya Jared carrying an unconscious Chloe. I looked at Ate Deny, she cried and cried, when she saw me, Anger was all written in her face. She walks towards me and slap me hard. 

"Deny!" 

"You!" she pointed at me, I look at her, waiting for any explanations on what is going on. 

and that's when I heard the most painful phrase I heard in my entire life

"you killed our sister." she said with full of anger and pain. I stood there, nailed at my place as they walk out in the forest. 

I killed Chloe? yeah. maybe. of course, I left her.

I killed my younger sister.

weeks has passed, after the burial of Chloe, Ate Deny never talks to me again. I tried to asks for her forgiveness but she kept on walking away from me. Not until when she accidentally pushed me in the stairs that leads me into some serious injuries. She came to the hospital to pay some visit with our parents of course, she said sorry to me and being the naive I was, I forgave her. But as soon as I said I forgive her, she made it clear she will stop being my older sister. From that day on, she stops caring for me.

and that's the reason why I left Europe and I promise to myself that I will never coming back

end of Flashback

I start crying again when I remembered that painful past. Until now, I am blaming myself for what happened to Chloe. Kung hindi lang sana ako pumayag. Kung hindi ko lang sana siya iniwan. hindi sana to mangyayari. over the years, I kept on running away from this. I accepted it but the truth is I can't face this fear. fear that someone might know about this and they will judge me for who I am. It's like my own demon that keeps on dragging me into the pits of hell. I've been a coward and weak. pretending that eveything will be alright since Europe is miles away from the Philippines.

and I think it's time for me to face my own fear, my past, my demon. I'll fight for it, Even if it means I need to sacrifice. I killed my sister's life, and now, there are hundreds of life that is in the line to be saved now and that includes both of my parents.

I wipe my tears and went to the guest room where Ate Deny is staying for a moment

"yes?"

"can I come in?"

"sure."

nangpumasok na ako. I look at her. hingang malalim. This is it Anya, there is no turning back

"What do you want Anya?"

"I'm coming with you. I'm going back to Europe, with you."